Friday, October 10, 2003

YeAh!!~~ Last day of the week in ofc liaoz...

Hmmm..... jus came back fr :Q.... was ICQ-ing with YH for awhile b4 tt... kept apologising 4 wats happened n said he felt bad n sad over it.... Once is enaf la... U didnt haf to oso... Things like tt happens n it will again next time... so its ok... m used to it... maybe not fr u but others... so dun tink too much abt it. It's passed...

Was like throwing bits of papers courtesy from my darlin who was busy tearing it this morning into jymoz tee n jacket jus nw... kekek... was supposed to haf thrown it at him this morning but we didnt get the chance to since he kinda knew abt it... hee... c la! Nw u've littered the whole stairecase.... dun be angry at us wokie jymoz... heheh... was pushed to do it to u the 2nd time by the others lehz... i didnt wan to but they kept makin me take the thing fr them esp madam... oops!~ U've got to believe me hor... errr... u do rite?? ya? ya? kekeke... i noe u wont be angry at me wan la... heee... u're my BiG Bro mahz... Wweee.....

Roro almost freaked out B4 we went for our break cos her upper lips started its nonsense again after abt a yr... the virus seemed like it was back to haunt her... aiyoz.... terrible manz... though i've neva encountered wat she's gone thru but it seems reali terrible to be in tt state lehz... can understand how she feels la... wld be equally paranoid if it was me... cant imagine manz... she was kinda pissed with her mum oso... Alamak... tis woman ah... here i m talkin abt her there she is takin her CD cum mirror to look again... she's been doin tt like all the time... but it's worst now... kekek... the intervals r kinda gettin shorter n shorter... heee.... Oei Woman!!! U Beta stop touchin it b4 i chop of yr fingers n tongue... Den u can be the person with no tongue which Jymo was blabbering abt jus nw... hahah....

Cant wait for 5.30pm.... den we can all leave the god forsaken place liaos... wahah... finally it's friday liaos... hee.. gonna be meetin XXX at gdns for dinner today... Jialatz la... the Queen of Gluttony is meetin us for dinner n she's oredi said tt she wants to eat caeser salad, calamari, cake n coffee... AiYoz.... beta not order too much manz... or else i tink i'll faint... Thank god we wont be stayin out too late since XXXX's gotta wk tmw...

Roro we've got a mission later so u haf to go with me ah... cannot paoqi wo lehz... dun worry it wont swell cos it knows tt u've gotta help me... heee... Gotta poloso her to go for the show with us tmw hor.... Hmmm.... my darlin n jymoz oredi preparing to leave... aiya... its 5pm liaos... they're leaving oredi.... *siGhz* Tink me oso go prepare too den can leave on the dot... Wopie...

ArGh... Stupid day...

Woke up so very earli today... was oredi awakw in bed at 5.50am... since i slept ultra earli last nite... was supposed to have talked to YH when he reached home n all... told him to call me in 5 min but after 10min i had the feelin tt he fell aslp oredi... hmmm... normally im ok with it but i guess its jus Post Menstrual Bluessszzz..... got reali irritated n kinda pissed... since it wasnt the first time it happened... *sigh* was so fedup tt i went to bed n fell aslp almost immediately...

As usual, first thing i did was to look at my msgs... YH msged me at abt 12.20am apologising for fallin aslp... y bother? It's sure to happen again... so no diff... sick of pple apologising n apologising... "Sorry" has been used too frequently often enough... it no longer depicts the real meaning of the word... in fact, i feel tt it even underrates it... its been said to me many a times for me to know that sayin sorrie can even be an understatement at times.... Words smetimes dun mean anything for its onli words... like wat my dad always "Actions speak louder than words. Prove it to me or beta yet prove me wrong. Only then i'll be convinced."

YH called me thrice this morning but i was still sore abt wat happened so didnt answered the call. god noes y i m but i m... rec'd a msg from him slightly later but i felt tt there wasnt a need to reply to it... to sum up... i dunno y im feelin this way... cld be the PMB syndrome or tt i felt tt its repetative n thigs would bound to happer again... expect it to since it has many a times... its jus like a blardy damn cycle...no matter who it happens with... the same things happens lor... *siGHz*

Though i woke up earli today.... left my home ard 8am i was still late for work... thanks to the Anja la... made me walk round the whole of Houg Green in search for her LSS... kekeke... the plc where i usually buy my YSL no longer brings in small packs... *siGhz* the lady boss was like blabberin away tellin me tt onli the shops where cant sell their ciggies will still haf the small packs... yada yAda yada... *siGhz* den finally managed to get her ciggies... bought breakfast n waited for the stupid cab... Goodness... ultraly diff to get a cab today.... waited for so long n was on the line with roro... she oso was waiting for a cab... we were both grumbling on n on abt y there was a vacant cab in sight n how others were like cuttin in front of us to flag for a cab... talkin abt this onli makes me boil even more... all cos of this sickenin guy who was runnin to n fro across the road for a cab... major sucker manz... he knew tt i was flaggin for a cab n yet he had the audacity to jus run less than 2m in front of me to flag for the cab.... sucker!!! in the end he didnt get any cab n was still waiting aft i got in one.... hahaha....

Reached ofc n was like waiting for the driver to return me my change n all.... was surprised when i say so many pple at the lobby area doin the Great Spore Work-out... hahah.... evyone was like in the Healty Lifestyle Tee n doin the work-out... alamak... some were kinda young n gave tt paisay n sheepish look each time someone walked into the lobby area... kekeke... thank god we didnt haf to do smething like tt manz... hahaha... came up n not too long later roro reached oso... feelin kinda hungry now... haven done a single email...kinda slpy suddenly oso... aiyoz... Tink i'll start on my carrot cake first.... kekek...

Thursday, October 09, 2003

.....SiaNsaTioN.....

Goodness... m so bored n slpy nw... Been bored since 3+... *siGhz* wat to do wat to do... alamak... evyone has tt slpy look on their face... My Darlin actuali slpt jus nw... kekek... cld even dream manz... n when she woke up, for a minute she was like err... where m i now? n had to slowly turn ard to realise tt she was in ofc... hahah.... Winner la u darlin~~~

Online in ICQ... saw a few frenz online... YH's online too.. said he had to leave his seat for 10 min n wld be right back... k lor... hmmm... but guess wat? 40min later he still wasnt back... *Bored to infinity manz* haiz... sianz... sent him a msg in icq n he was like sorrie sorrie... (as usual...) Cldnt reali be bothered since was bored to the core n told him to go do his stuff... wat to do... wkin mahz... though i can undertand tt but i was simply not in the mood to be understandin n all... Anja jus msged n asked if anyone wanted to go smoke....

Jus came back from our relaxation session but its like of no help today... Still feelin slpy... wk's been ok... had a few hiccups n weird users.... sme replied so fast... they haf nothing beta to do is it? alamak... or they haf no one to talk to.... haiz...

Asked Roro if she's msged XXXX n she was like nope.... u msg her la... *siGhz* sent her a msg confirmin abt tmw's dinner at gdns... hmmm.... been kinda long since we last spoke to each other or even meet up.... talked to Jymo n chitra yesterday abt wat its gonna be like n i guess ive decided wat i'll be talkin to her tmw... tink i'll jus go with the mood n all... Will also be bringing up tt Chris's incident n all... after much tot i guess it'll be beta la... kekek... will take Dr. Jymoz advice n play the reverse psychology thing with her... kekeke... tink it's abt time too.... We'll jus haf to c how things goes fr here on...

TiReD.....

Slept kinda late last nite.... cldnt reali wake up tis morning... though was up at 7am, i ended lazin in bed until almost 7.50am!!! Heee... cannot take it manz... if it rained this morning, i tink i wld be even lazier to come to wk... *pEngz* Simply to slpy to drag myself to the toilet... Reached ofc abt 10min late... but m not tt bothered... kinda laxed now tt Gloria's not ard... hmmm... but then again even when she was ard we were neva on the dot... haha...

Nothing much happened the nite b4... forgot tt mummy wasnt goin to be cookin dinner as she had sme sort of gatherin with her ex-colleagues at Copthorn... is this how u spell it?? oh wateva... Anyway, we had to wait for Van to come home fr school b4 we even had anything to eat... *siGhz* Luckily i wasnt hungry at all or else she wld haf gotten it from me good when she came home... hee... waited n waited n finally she came home with Felicia... wahlauz tt girl is reali tall manz... feel like a dwarf standing next to her... not tt im tt short or wat la... but seriously lor she's even taller than Eugenie... HnG!

Sara n myself was like wahsay finally u're back ah... but guess wat?? She hasnt gone to buy dinner yet!!! Alamak.... tt woman ah... i can reali kill her manz... can be bothered to come home n change first den go ouot again to get dinner... aiyoz... had to wait again... We were jus to lazy to go out n get our own dinner so cant complain so much oso la... hehe... waited n waited again for her to get dinner for us... finally came home after like light years later... cant blame her la... short legged pple cant walk tt fast mahz... haha... wahlauz... she's gonna kill me for tt when he reads this manz... kekek...

Msged Garry earlier n got a one-word reply from him... Wat the %$&$... wasnt expecting such a reply to my msg... *hMpF!!* Gave me the impression tt he cldn't even be bothered to reply back n onli did so for the sake of it... damn it... replied back n haf not heard from him since... even until nw... Bz again? I presume so la... Was lazin in front of the tv when YH msged me... replied him but it took him awhile b4 replyin back... wats with pple takin so long to reply to a msg huh? Damn! Gettin impatient manz... was kinda irritated so replied in a rather hostile manner... aiyoz... sorrie hor... cant help it when im irritated or angry lehz... Said tt he was at the arcade n tt his fren was playin games... Guys... man... still boys to me... cant stop playin no matter how old they r... *sigh* Tink me losing it again manz... Help Jymoz.... When's our next getaway ah??? Soon? Wahaha...

Damn... my darlin jus told me tt somethings wrong with blogger again! Alamak... yesterday oso lehz.... Smething beta not screw up mine manz.... or else me no stamina to go re-do all these lehz...

Anyway... was almost dozing off when my blardy hp rang... stone stone me went to answer the call without makin sure i knew who it was... aiyoz... BIG mistake... 1 of my irc frenz called... *sighz* neva spoken to him b4.... erm... i tink haf la but for a very short while as i was bz lor... Bo pianz no excuse not to talk now... brain was still stoned to cock up an excuse smemore... hMmmm..... told him tt i'd call him... siong manz if continue talkin n my mobile... Turned out tt Andrew was rather ok... *heNgz* Rather ang mo pai smemore.... thruout the whole time, we were like talkin only in English.. which suited me jus fine... hehe... talkin to him kinda reminds me of Joel... y? cos they sort of sound alike in certain ways... the way they speak n also cos he's younger than me... hee...

YH called while i was talkin to him.... finally manz... been like waiting for ages oredi... so boring... every wed gotta wait n wait since he had guitar lessons... worse if i haf nothing to do... been hafin to wait rather frequent off late... whether its for a msg reply, a phone call, smeone or wateva.... sickening lehz... m waiting now for smeone to either msg or call me.... wonder how long it'll be until i hear fr him again... haven been talkin to him for awhile oredi.... wonder wats goin on... Anyway... talked to Yh for awhile since he was walkin back him... den he said he'd call me when he got home so i said ok lor... wait again... *SiGHz* Ended the call with Andrew shortly after...

Decided to go up to my room since there was nothing to do dwnstairs... YH called me aft awhile... haha... tt dodo ah actuali sent the msg to my home number instead of mobile... sotong!! kekeke... heng me answered the call manz... kekeke... my didi started msgin me while i was talkin to YH... aiyoz... tt boy ah... kekek... can be quite adorable at times with the type of qns he ask me... haha... replied to him a few times den stopped since i cldnt quite concentrate.... Hee... sorrie ah didi.... noe u wont guai jie wan rite....

Wednesday, October 08, 2003

~^~^~ sLEePLesS NiTe ~^~^~

Woke up tis morning feelin superly tired n restless.... felt like goin back to slp n callin in sick... the weather being cool n gloomy wasnt of much help... Had a terrible nite slpin all bcos of a freakin lizard which was outside my room window...

Was actuali in bed b4 midnite n was supposed to try to slp... finally when i was jus abt to snooze soundly into dreamland, i heard tt lizardy sound n it totally freaked me out!!! I was like oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck!!! Did i hear tt correctly or were my ears playin tricks on me since i was like zoinked oredi... Bcos of tt, it kept me up practically the whole nite... Would doze off into slumber for less than an hr n i wld be up again freakin abt it... my mind was like where's tt darn thing now?? Has it crawled nearer or is it still outside or has it gotten into my room oredi?!?!? Tis went on n on the whole blardy nite... feelin slpy nw... *siGhz* It didnt help tt time was passing so SLOW.... it felt like ages for jus an hr to pass.... goodness...

Woke up at 7am n went abt gettin ready for wk... my darlin msged me earli in the morning sayin tt she was gonna be wearing jeans n i was like ok me too... so here we are both in jeans in the middle of the week... wahaha... came to ofc n roro was like hng~~ y u din msg me tt u were gonna be wearing jeans? Den i wld haf worn jeans too n my pants wld be dirty n wet... OopS!~~ pAisAy wor Roro... hee....

Anyway we went down for breakfast kinda earli today.... kekek... roro bought wantan mee for the both of us n also you tiao... i was like wahsay woman... oredi i can finish the wantan mee now still haf you tiao ah.... she was like aiyoz can finish wan la... take one bite of wantan den eat the you tiao like tt den will finish in no time... Haha... ya rite ah... me ended up not fininshing both.... cannot take it la.... feel so bloated n wanna puke oredi... but my fren here finished evything sia!!! Ha! Dun siao kan our Ms Lee sia... Skinny n small built but she power manz.... *ToiNg* I salute u la... the title can be passed on to u oredi... but maybe u gotta share with Zhizhi la... hahaha.... K la beta start wkin liaos... but tink will change my song first... lagi slpy manz hearing tt.... hahaha.....

Tuesday, October 07, 2003

wAt a dAy iT hAs BeeN.......

Hmmm... Anja n Roro on MC today... kinda quiet in ofc... As usual all of us are feelin bored n dun haf the mood to wk... ekeke... reached ofc earli today so was dwn with Jymo n Chitra hafin breakfast... was on out way up when smeone told us tt Gloria has been admitted to the Labour Ward... kekek... gave birth to a baby boy... hehe... tis means tt she wont be in ofc for the next 2 mths liaos... yiPpY~~~ but then again there r alot of spies ard... *hNg!~*

Day went by rather slow today... had 2 hrs lunch again... haha.. played daidi n jymo was on a losin streak.... wahaha... die there we r hafin long lunch n all n my darlin n myself haven even hit our becnhmark... but heck care la... kekek... :P

As i was sayin in my earlier post, there was a misunderstanding btw YH n myself but i guess we managed to sort things out last nite... hmm... thanks to the change in my mood i was kinda cold n hostile towards him... guess i was too bovious for him not to notice... *siGhz* Anyway tt silly guy started tinkin n was tryin to understand wat i meant... hmmm.... tink he got a little too carried away in his tots... kekek.... i was partly at fault too since i gave him the impression tt i was implyin wat he tot i did....

Sensed tt smething was not rite when i finally cleared my head n emotions to realise tt wat was happening cld be jeopordising our "friendship"..... we almost ended the call but i felt tt i had to make things clear n straight to him b4 we did....or else who noes wat may result from it... wasnt prepared for the unexpected to happen yet.... i guess we smehow managed to clear it... things r back to normal now... i hope... Has it? I shld tink so wor.... hee... :)

Rec'd an email today tt there were goin to be sme visitors on thur n we had to dress formally... so sianz man.... Argh... thur is our cargo pants day.... damn... they always haf to haf visitors come on a thurs of all days.... *hmmppfff!!*

Anyway roro called n i spoked to her for quite a while... told me tt XXXX called her n was complainin abt her dad... *sigh* said tt he dad bought those antique stuffs for their living room n all but till now he hasnt gotten for her her things for her bedroom... dun understand her dad oso manz... been draggin for so long oredi... each time he says he'll be gettin it for her but each time he doesnt... n they've like shifted to the new place for almost 3yrs oredi... goodness... wats her dad doin manz... If i was in her shoes i wldnt be keepin quite abt things oredi... no doubt she wldnt wan to make things difficult for her dad n stepmum but tt doesnt mean she shld be treated this way oso... come on... even a lodger is treated beta... at least the haf the basics in a bedroom...

Roro oso said tt XXXX told her abt the chris incident thingy n she had to pretend tt she doesnt noe abt it n all... come to tink abt it, its kinda weird n funny... ekekeke... cos we've known abt it for like weeks oredi... i was like goodness den wat u did... roro was like wat else cld i do? I had to pretend like i didnt noe n be surprised la... kekeke.... Roro said tt XXXX felt the same way as how i felt when i 1st heard abt it fr Chris... she felt tt she was like the 3rd party n all who caused our break-up but come on la... tis happened way after we broke up... but then again who reali knew when it happened... I guess im not bothered abt it anymore... tts part of wats passed in my path of life... i've been there, experienced wat its like n im done with it... its jus another experience, a lesson learnt n another closed chapter in my life tt i may look back at in the future fr time to time... hmmm..... a bitter-sweet experience tt i will always remember, cherish n kept locked in my heart n mind... :)

=== Does it pay to be nice to others??? ===

Smething happened last nite which sort of affected my mood tremendously.... also caused a mis-communication btw YH n myself... M glad tt it we managed to clear tt... shall talk abt it later in the day if time permits.... Anyway wat happened got me tinkin....

Many a times you tend to console others when they r feelin down or troubled. Many a times u jus keep quiet when they vent their anger and frustrations at u. Y?? Bcos u know wat it's like to be in their position. Tts y when they turn to u, u noe tt it's for a valid reason. Either they've got no one else to turn to, they find it easy to confide n talk to u or they reali treasure yr friendship, the care n concern u shower upon them.

Sometimes u jus do all these to be a listening ear or even a punchin bag for tt smeone bcos u care n r concern 4 their well-being. At times, u don't even have to be a friend who constantly meet up or go out together to show tt u care n r concern/ No matter how much effort or concern u put in, u never seek for anything in return. Even a simple thank u wld suffice. However, U'll not expect tt smeone to throw verbal abuses nor turn their back at u even when they're feelin down n out. Tts the least one wld expect. At least tts wat i wld expect. However, when things like tt happens, how wld u feel?? How wld u feel if smeone whom u've been there for, who u've consoled, whom u've shared yr problems, laughter n nonsense with suddentl tells u tt he doesnt noe who the fuck u r???? Smeone whom u've treated like a younger brother, whom u've showed care n concern 4, whom u've consoled and adviced each time he comes running to u, suddenly slaps tt across yr face. How wld u feel?

Hurt? Disappointed? Sad? Dejected? Taken for granted of..... well i felt every single one of those emotions. Call me an emotional person.... but i guess i m at times....

Summary of wat was sent to me:

Self: U ok or nt? Smethings troubling u? U wanna talk abt it or share ur problems?
XXX: Share wat problems? No problems... tink i girl ah? Share problems? M fine jus mentally crazy....(Smething like tt... i cant recall wat was said exactly)
Self: Not only girls share problems, guys can oso. U haf anything u wanna talk abt? Wat's troubling u?
XXX Nothing... jus lots of shit....
Self: So wat kind of shit u wanna talk abt?...........................................
XXX: Den dun reply. Simple as tt. I dun even know who the fuck are you.
Self: Fine. I have my limits. If u're not bothered abt how others feel, tts fine. U want to vent yr frustrations at me, it's ok. Jus bare in mind tt I haf feelins n will get hurt too.
XXX: U get hurt? got pple with u wat.... short of an idiot like me makes no diff
XXX: K. Won't msg u again. Bye. Njoy yr days ahead.
XXX: ...Sorry... dun be angry k? You're the only one left talkin to me.....

Hnnn.... Is tt so? Maybe it's bcos of yr attitude n all tts y im the only sucker stupid enaf to still be here to listen n be there for u wheneva u need me.... But tt's jus me. A sucker! As long as i've got nothing against u n u me, i'll always be there wheneva u need me. Always tryin my best to help or console anyone as best as i can.... But.... is it right to be?? Shld i be? Does it pay to be this way? Nt tt im hopin for anything in return or wat-so-eva.... But m definately not lookin for such a reply to be thrown back n spit at back to me..... Maybe this is a lesson well learnt....

I guess i shld start learning not to take things tt seriously from now on. Shldnt let things, incidents, feelins or wateva eat into me n matter too much to me. Shld start learning to treat evythings tts happened or is to happen lightly n impartial from now on. Maybe, who noes, maybe this way, i wldnt be tt affected or hurt when unexpected turn of events happen....

Life wld be happier n simpler tt way.... No more complications, problems, sorrow, hurt..... a Simpleton's life... free frm all the troubles n turmoils of life... At times, i reali envy the simple-minded. A stress-free n worryless life they lead, passing each day as it comes, living it happily n to its fullest....

Haha.... either a simpleton's life one can lead or a life tt evuone else leads. But there's always a difference. Your life is wat u make it out to be. U control it and evything tt revolves ard it. Not the other wat round. If u choose not to let anything affect u, then it wldnt. U lead the life u choose to live. No one else has the right nor can they tell u how to lead yr own life. True, they may be able to influence u to a certain extend but ultimately it is U yrself who decides n chooses wat u wan. The choice lies in yr own palms. Once a choice has been made, never turn back n regret wat has been chosen n decided upon. Follow thru it be it good or bad, easy or difficult, happy or sad......

Monday, October 06, 2003

Hmmm..... wat a slpy day

On lunch break now.... cant believe myself manz... been feelin slpy fr the moment i reached ofc until now... haiz... wats with me wor... seriously no mood to work manz... its gettin worse by the day.. kekek... too lazy to even go dwnstairs with jymo anja n my darlin... cannot believe it... jus finish drinking my soup....yummilicious... *buRp* OOPS.... hahah....

Still haf yet to reach my benchmark yet lehz... alamak... sianz la... still haf another 13 or so to go... aiyoz... HeLp~~~ Gettin so bored... decided to come in here to change a few things... hahah... yeah aft like 3 days of not listenin to my mp3s i finally get to hear them again... kekeke... hmmm.... come to tink of it me haven not smoked since fri oso manz... hee...

Finally rceived a msg for Joel... hmm.... seems like tt fellow has finally taken my advice n got himself attached recently liaos... good for him lor... happy tt he's found smeone... kekek... told him to tell me abt her smetime n he was like okie... kekek... crazy guy....

Was talkin to YH last nite n we were like talkin abt drinking n stuffs like tt... hmm... tt guy is also asthmatic like me wor... but his seems to be more serious compared to mine even though the same things trigger the attack... aiyoz... u gotta take care of yrself ya... dun always take things so lightly wor n be yr own doctor smemore.... reali leh me not jokin hor... u dun come n tink u reali Dr. Kok i tell u... hmmm....

Anyway was like talkin abt wat kind of fruits we like to eat n all n it seems like we like almost the same type of fruits... haha... the funniest thing was tt btw longans lychees n rambutans, our preference of eatin which first was oso the same... hmmm.... he was like sayin i guess most pple oso wld be the same as us lor... n i was like hmm... is it... mayb yes mayb not... hmm...*ponders* is it so.... anyway since he liked eatin grapes oso... told him to try eatin it when its frozen... kekek... smeone taught me how to eat tt when it was frozen n its reali nice... miss tt smeone too...

Hee... jus recieved a call fr YH n he was like apologising n tellin me he had late lunch n all... kekek... tis guy ah dunno y or wats he explaining himself for oso.... can be so cute yet silly at times.... haha.... talked for awhile before askin him to go do his wk since he's got lots to do... poor fellow may need to work OT today.... *siGhz* tink me beta go back to wkin liaos... hahah..... i hope... *Pi Pi* Hahaha.... aiyoz... this silly guy can msg me..............

Sunday, October 05, 2003

Sianz.... Y is it Sunday oredi?

Aiyoz... time flew is it? So fast sunday oredi ah? Alamak.... i dun feel like goin back to work tmw lehz.... sianz ah.... stayed home the whole of yesterday n was bz catchin up with slp... hmm... but seems like it isnt sufficiant lehz... hehe.... if onli i dun haf to go to work for another few more days..... hahah.... can slowly wait lor....

Hmmm..... weather's so hot today manz.... cannot tahan... too lazy to go wash my clothes lehz.... kekek... woke up at abt 12 plus onli... slpy manz... hmm... was talkin to YH last nite aft i updated my blog n he played the guitar for me again... kekeke... touched wor... *Thanks ya.... so sweet of u...* Played Reality n he was like tellin me tt he's not played this b4... was kinda impressed lor... Continued talkin.... cldnt reali remember wat i said but he mentioned smething like alot of pple oso care n r concern for u mahz... n i was like hw wld u noe? N he was like ya... i noe Roro is n abt another 3 others oso mahz... Hmm... didnt reali wanted to talk abt tt so chged topic.... hmmm....

I guess when the others read this they'll oso noe wat i mean la... Smetimes i cant help to tink n feel if its bcos of wat i said n relate in here tts y sme pple are behaving differently compared to b4. *siGhz* Is it? I noe tt they do come into my blog to read... but.... hmmm.... smetimes i jus wish they'll reali tell me wat they tink n feel instead of jus keepin things to themselves n not say a thing.... i noe of this person who will tell me does it make any difference to things even if i say it out? WIll it change anything? I guess it wld onli make evyone feel worse n all den wats the point of sayin things out... I alone suffer n be sad beta den evyone feelin the same way rite? *siGhz* I jus hate it when anyone tells me tt....

Was talkin to YH last nite n smewhere during our conversation, we smehow talked abt the both of us.... YH was like sayin he doesnt wanna talk abt it cos he noes it wld end up the same way as it did the last time n he didnt want tt to happen... if i remembered correctly it was smewhere durin our conversation the nite b4 tt he mentioned smething n when i asked him to repeat it, he said he cldnt remember.... I cldnt quite remember wat he said but i guess it was smething like either i dun wanna lose u or i dun wan u to go or smething like tt.... Which is which?? Wonder wat he meant by sayin tt....

Anyway we continued talkin n i bcme sort of withdrawn n he was like wats wrong dear? Did i say smething wrong again? Y u bcme like tt again? Come i baobao u k? hmm.... tis guy used to tell me tt he didnt n wldnt wanna call me dear n all over the phone.... nor wld he even muack anyone on the phone.... but tts not the case now.... when i asked him y he was like cos if i did it wld mean smething to me... i wld be like committing myself to tt person... so y is he doin it now? Haf u or R u committed oredi?????

Remember talkin abt this topic for quite awhile last nite... hmmm.... YH was like askin me abt my feelins for him, if it was more than b4 n if i felt closer to him now... i put the same qn back to him n he was like u answer me first.... chose not to answer him even though i sort of knew wat to tell him... dun tink i wanna open myself too much nw... dunno y.... cautious i guess....YH was like since tts the case then i choose not to answer u too.... *siGhz* I guess i noe yr answer oredi... from the way u talk to me n the things u say to me... yr tone of voice n all... i guess i noe wat yr answer is... the onli diff is tt u didnt say it out....tts all... guess u're rite.... shldnt talk abt this... cos when we do things we dun wan to happen does happen.... those who read my blog n mean alot to me will start to be withdrawn n all cos they may think tt it'll be beta for me tt way...

Y cant they jus leave the decision to me n all n not do anything abt it? Not to withdraw themselves from me n all.... they may tink tt they're helpin me to make things easier but i doubt it.... Beta stop tinking abt this whole thing n makin myself miserable... smetimes its easier said than done lor... feel guilty at times... but i guess i shld heed roro's advice lor... to take things not tt seriously n jus njoy the moment.... if n when things shld happen they wld lor...

Anyway.... makko n kuku's here at my plc now with the marshmellow man Gavin n the skinny devil Bernice.... hehehe..... so noisy now.... was talkin to YiHong earlier on... said he wld call m aft he finished bathing but smehow he's gotta help his mum wash the fishtank now... oh welll...... guess i'll jus hang ard here for awhile more... hmm....

Oh ya... Joel hasnt contacted me since i dunno when.... the same goes for XXXXX..... i guess im not so bothered abt her not contactin me anymore... kinda sick n tired of lookin forward to her contactin either roro n myself.... tink it sort of got to tt extend of me being pissed abt it oso.... dunno wats her problem... anyway those who know me noe im like tt... like wat roro said to me b4.... if smeone is gd to me im gd to tt smeone, if tt smeone is extremely gd to me i wld be extremely gd to tt smeone.... However if tt smeone gets into my bad books den tt smeone shld be cautious lor..... kekek... Feelin kinda hot manz.... hmm... maybe i'll go bath in awhile n njoy wateva's left of the weekend..... heee.....

Saturday, October 04, 2003

....:: TiRiNg dAy yEstErDaY!!! ::....

AAAHhhhh..... had such a good slp today! Was practically in bed the whole day today manz... Onli woke up to eat lunch den went back to bed n slept until almost 8pm.... Jus finished dinner n decided to check smething in my email n also to update my blog... Hee... Was so busy the whole of yesterday with my cheche's weddin tt i totally had no time to blog at all... kekek... Hope i can still remember evything.... i guess so la... haha...

My day started at 6.30am yesterday... got up in the mornin n got ready to go to my sunts plc at bedok.... was to reach there ard 8am... kekek... kinda excited cos my cheche was so called the 1st among my grp of close cousins to hold the formal chinese wedding dinner even though the others haf oredi ROM. My 1st time being an ah yi too... hehehe.... been looking forward to this wor... hmmm.... got ready faster than usual n was already downstairs waiting for my parents.

Reached bedok abt 8.30am n was waiting for the groom. Audrey n Pebble were oredi there.... n they were like aiyoz now then u come ah... hee... Audrey was bz since 7am since she was the videographer.... Pebble was one of the 7 ah yis my cousin had... Hmm... got to know the other ah yis... n they were quite ok.... actuali i've met 1 of them... Joanne.... Basically, the others were ok... 2 of the ah yis immediately clicked with Pebble n myself.... guess we haf the same frequency lor... Hee... was surprised to learn tt 1 of them was actuali married n has a 5 yr old son.... the other looks like a chiong-ster manz... very chor lor oso... funny too... Hmmm.... cldnt tahan one of the ah yis manz.... behaves n talks like as if she Knew it all... realised tt Pebble n Joanne didnt like her as well... Hahaha..... we haf a common target oredi...

We were like tinking how to sabo the groom when he comes n all... the "i knoe it all" ah yi wanted to make him drink this concoction made fr mixing wasabi n all the types of sauces.... kinda boring lehz... evyone oso doin tt.... we decided to make him drink this mixture made up of tiger, stout, vodka, brandy, light & dark sauce, pepper n.... err.... i tink a little of olive oil or smething like tt... no one dared to try it after evything was mixed... EEewww..... it smelled terrible....

When the groom finally arrived i was like Wahsay! U brought yr whole battalion ah? He was like arboh... brothers lehz... of cos must support me la... i was like oh is it? Good lor... then the chor lor ah yi was like u dun talk so much wat support support la... jus tell me how much u willing to give first then we can talk cock later.... Hahaha.... cannot tahan her man... He was like ok good straight to the point... shuang kuai.... i like... hahah... at first he took out $50, den $100 aft tt $150... We were like wahlauz! So neow ah? Den dun wan la... Bu jia bu jia le.... n he was like ok ok 1 more... n handed a red packet to us... we were like u wait... den went in to count how much... hmm... $386.... den we were like bu gou... n 1 of his brother was like wahlauz... bu gou! den ni men yao duo shou? n another ah yi was like zai jia $50.... n he was like Lan lan lor... in the end we kept the $$$ n he tot we'd wld let him in... we were like no no... still need to do 2 things.... 1. choose the correct lips on tissue tt belongs to yr wife n 2. Write for us 10 reasons y u like Jasmine.... n he was like wahlauz.... still cannot go in ah.... hahaha... in the end... he didnt manage to choose the correct lips cos none of it was hers.... told him tt he n his so-called brother of his had to drop 20 for us... kekeke.... it was like onli aft 30 min later tt we opened the door for him.....

The 4 of us then stood in front of one of the bedroom door n he was like walkin towards us n started singing smething we cldnt quite catch.... n we were like eh cannot push la... n he was like bo chap.... so ok lor we jus moved n let him in but Hahaha.... no bride there... n he was like wahlauz... kena twah! hehehe.... den we stood outside the correct room n told him tt upon jasmine's request...pls sing the cantonese version of mei tian ai n duo yi sie... he was like dun wan la... tis n tt... n we were like dun wan den cannot go in lehz... n he was like can get smeone to sing or not? n we were like No cannot.... u get smeone else to sing den tt smeone else can marry her lor... den he was like aiyoz... n started singing the 1st few verses... n we were like chorus oso pls.... n he continued n gave me tt face of his... hahah.... sorry lor.... me cannot help u today....

We left for the grooms plc abt 10.30am.... reached his plc n there were like onli Old pple there lor.... aiyoz... so boring lehz... all ah peks n ah sums.... *suGhz* Boring.... kekek.... had the tea ceremony n one his relatives gave my cousin these 2 superly thick gold bangles.... Pebble n myself was like piangz eh... handcuff ah? hahah.... jasmine was like giving us the same look too.... hahah... guess she also tot the same way... anyway we were done with the ceremony n all... stayed to eat smethings.... n after awhile later we headed for their new flat at punggol.... stayed there for awhile before goin back to my aunts plc for the tea ceremony.... hmm... managed to finish evything abt 2plus.... was contemplating whether or not to go with them to conrad or to go back with my parents... decided to go home n rest since we'd all be meetin at suntect at 6pm..... reached home n chged... took off my make-up.... Finally my pores were able to breathe! Heee.... msged Garry for awhile den HH called me... kekek... talked to him for short while den decided to take a nap.... was totally shacked manz... *sighz*

Oh ya.... forgot to mention tt Jamine n Joanne almost met with an accident on Thur abt 7pm or so when they went to collect the gowns n all.... Goodness! Jasmine's Hp was with me n we were on our to Sgoon Gdns to meet up with the others when he hp rang... answered the call for her n was talkin to this man. Told him tt my cheche wasnt ard n cldnt talk to him. Told him tt she'd call him back shortly n he was like can u tell her the damage cost $600. Told him tt i'll get her to call him again. Joanne happened to be in the same car n she was like who was it? Then aft tt she was like aiyoz... yesterday we almost met with an accident n related the story to us.... so happened tt they had jus collected their stuffs n was at the parkin lot arranging it in the car when this taxi jus drove staight n knocked into my cousins car n hit the car door which was open... Wahlanz! Wat was the freakin driver doin manz.... cldnt he see them or the fact tt the door was open? How cld he jus ram his cab into them?

Joanne was like sayin he stopped n got off the car n he had tt look on his face tt he knew tt it was his fault... jus when he was abt to say smething tis Ah lian came out of the car n started throwing verbal abuses at my cousin n Joanne.... Damn it manz! Wat the fuck was wrong with tt lian?! Was it even any problem of hers? Started accusing my cousin n asked if she knew how to drive or not.... Stupid Bitch! In the first plc... my cousin wasnt even driving... they were parked in the lot n the engine wasnt even on... Bimbo! According to my cousin, her tone of voice, posture n gesture gave evyone the impression tt she was simply tryin to pick a fight... my cousin was like u're in no position to talk to me this way as its of no concern of yrs..... so pls get out of my way.

The lian jus didnt noe when to back off..... she was like u dun come n talk big hor... .den told the taxi driver not to be scared if anything happens n all she will be his eye witness.... Haha... such a stupid bitch... eye witness to wat? The fact tt it was his fault n tt he was to compensate for the damage? The stupid bitch den asked for my cousins name n contact no. on behalf o the driver.... wat a ding bat... ask for name n contact no without gettin my cousins i/c no. or her car license plate! Dumb bitch! We were like so hot when we heard abt this... n went like wat was the lians problem? Too free or smething is it? Who scared of her? Jus cos she saw tt it was easy to eat Jas so she wants to eat her whole is it? She beta dun come n mess with our Jas or she'll noe wats in it for her manz..... Cos of this incident my cheche cldnt slp n all the whole nite...

The stupid driver kept callin n callin... so frus tt i had to call her husband to talk to him.... she was way to stressed up n shaken oredi... goodness! All this happened jus the nite b4 her big day.... who wldnt be manz.... Kailun den spoke to him n was explaining tt he was her husband n all... tried to be civil n told the driver tt they werent free to settle matters with him den n he kept insisting.... Kailun lost his cool n started shoutin at him... told him tt he was holdin his marriage ceremony n all.... wahsay! 1st time i saw kailun tis way wor.... the kailun i knew nea raised his voice nor lost his cool b4... hmm... when he's fierce he's reali fierce....

I always haf this phobia when guys lose their cool n get very worked up n lose their temper..... alamak... cannot tahan.... chris was oso like tis last time... though i seldom saw this side if him....each time i did i got scared n my heart misses a beat... cannot take it manz...hehehe... Anyway the driver called again.... den aft tt the drivers's son called... i spoke to his son n he was like kinda civil n all... hmm... sounded abt my age or slightly older.... hmm..... hahaha.... siaoz! Anyway told him to hold the line n passed the hp to kailun again... they spoke for awhile b4 the call ended n he passed the hp backed to me n said not to worry.... evything wld be settled... i was like hmm... tts wat u're for... u're 1st official duty as my cousins husband... kekek...


Got woken up by my mum n it was like 4+ oredi... alamak.... was supposed to be up by 4 to bath since i was goin with my mum to the salon to set out hair... aiyoz... bath n all den went to the salon... aft tt came home... did my make-up in record time... kekek... was like ready in less than 30 min manz... fastest i remember so far... Wei roro... me used the purple eye shadow tt came with the L'oreal mascara which i bought the other time lehz... kekeke... turned out quite ok.... hahah.... cldnt decide which shoe to wear since i recently bought so many pair... ended using the newest pair... kekek... mu sis was like wahlauz... y u papa mummy n granda all look like so formal ah? 1st time lehz... i was like haha... of cos la! Kekek... left for Conrad since my mum had to go to the hotel room to help cheche put on the crosang since she was wearin the kebaya for the tea reception... kekek... me went with audrey to suntec to meet up with Pebble who was waiting for us there...

Haiz... disaster started from here... dun undrstand why my cousin did arrange the seating allocation n all... made it free seatin... goodness! Its neva possible to haf free seating esp when its a chinese dinner lor.... goodness felt so disorgnised manz.... *siGhz* Pebble n myself were at out wits-end since we didnt noe who was comin n all... didnt noe who was who for sme oso... aiyoz... headache manz.... to make this worse... my cousin-in-law was such a pain in the arse!!! Bitch manz.... cannot tahan her... she reali spoilt our day.... her mouth was reali filthy... thought she may meant it in a good way... she reali didnt noe how to be tachful lor... damn.... talkin abt her onli makes my blood boil... she wanted to be like the overall in-charge rite? Ok lor... let her be then... me not bothered... HnG!

From the start she was like so bitchy abt things liaos..... hmmm.... moron... in the mornin she was like tell cheche not to talk so much when she reached the groom's place n all... also told her not to open her mouth too big when she smiled n all... fuck manz... who the hell does she tink she is by tellin my cheche wat to do? She was like freakin ya ya onli sayin this n tt... like nobody's business.... someone shld tell her to shut her gap up....

During the photo takin during the dinner at nite she was again being bossy n ya-ya... got fiona n myself to go n arrange the next table to be ready fr the photo yet when she went to the table she had to re-arrange the position again.... goodness this woman is reali smething manz... she actuali positioned herself so she wld appear in every shot. Such a bitch manz.... ArGh!!!

Evyone was in such a happy mood n all esp the happy couple... evyone was happily toasting them n drinking butshe kept tellin cheche not to drink... most of us were like wats her problem? She tryin to get the attention of evyone or was she tryin to be the goody goody sis-in-law in front of evyone? Oh pls la... U can sace the drama n act u put up la Belle! Evyone noes wat a bitch n pretender u've been since u married into our family! U can save it.... Tt explains y my gege hasnt been on good terms with her... Though he kept quiet abt things n neva speaks abt his heartaches n problems, it was obvious to all wat he has been going thru lor.... haiz.... Anyway, there she was tellin us not to drink but on the other side she kept drinking with the ang mos who were kailuns colleagues... Ha! Wat an actress.... When we cousins were drinkin she kept stoppin us... wats with her? major problem manz.....

Anyway..... me n a few ah yis were so gan chiong b4 the start of dinner cos we were tryin to untie the balloons for it to be ready for the 1st march in... kekek... supposed to throw it down when cheche n kailun walked in... kekeke... they were sayin tt it looked very nice from the bottom when the ballons floated down... hmmm.... so romantic sia... kinda fely nostalgic... most of the songs tt was being played kinda brought back memories sia... they played my song by Collin Raye smemore.... aaahhhh.....

Dinner went by ok... due to the free seating thingy me ended seating with Fiona, meimei n her husband n also with tis grp of aunties n uncles.... aiyoz.... din noe who they werr but they seemed to noe who i was. Who, when n hw they knew me, me oso dunno manz.... they jus kept talkin to me on n on non-stop n i had to like pretend n entertain them..... goodness.... was like whispering to fiona later on tt i haf no freakin idea who they hell they were manz....

Durin dinner me rec'd a msg fr Garry n YiHong..... Garry was like tellin me ttt there was gonna be roadblock all over Spore for the next 2 days... n i was like how u know... n he said tt Lawrence msged him n informed him... i was like hmm.... lawrence ah.... oh ok lor... wonder wat tt lamer's doin now... kekek... nt reali bothered oso... msged Garry ever nw n then... YiHong was like msgin me tt he's jus finished dinner at MSQ n tt he was goin to newsroom later... *hmPf* Been a long time since me went to NewsRoom liaos... Miss tt place manz... *siGhz* Anyway conitined drinking with my cousins.... piangz eh... we drank so much i cldnt even keep track of hw much we drank... hahah.... Cheche was like draggin Pebble n myself evywhere for a toast... Goodness! We ended drinking it for her on her behalf since we didnt wan her to drink so much.... she's lost it totally liaos... even kailun was like u dun drink oredi la... i noe u not drunk but dun drink so much oredi k.... kekek... i swear i din make her drink wor.... tink it was the other way around manz...

Tink we have been drinking for god noes how long when evyone was like finally stoned.... den we were like beta accompany jasmine back to her hotel room first.... den went to meet up with my parents n all.... halfway back there was a roadblock along little india.... hmmm.... they didnt even stop a single car lehz.... kekek... anyway me reached home n washed up. Settled dwn n was like gettin ready for bed when the alcohol reali took effect... Aiyoz... headache wor.... evything got kinda blur.... cldnt reali open my eyes n wasnt able to get to slp... *hMpF!!* Tink was kinda stoink oredi....

Called garry n talked to him for awhile... dozed off after awhile n he made me go slp... tried to... managed to slp for few minutes but kept wakin up cos felt so uneasy... heartbeat was beating too fast n felt so hot evywhere wor... rec'd a msg from my didi askin if i was aslp yet but i jus wasnt able to reply him... Sorrie wor....

Jus den YiHong msged me sayin tt he was home n had jus finished bathin n all.... called n talked for a long long time.... Tink tt tt was the longest conversation we've had.... Told me abt newsroom n all.... den i told him abt the weddin... hmm.... We ended the call cos he was hungry.... told him to go cook smething to eat den went to slp for 2-3 hrs n woke up cos hungry.... din eat much the day b4 since i was too bz... had lunch... den came back up to slp until almost 8 n went dwn... no one was home yet since my mum went out with 2 of my sis.... so had to wait for them to buy dinner back... So here i m now jus finished dinner not to long ago.... hmmmm...... Dunno y but i haf this feelin tt my auntie has arrived..........

HA!!!! Piangz eh..... so zun wan!!!! She's arrived on time... jus as i expected..... Roro ah.... so zun manz my calculations..... kekeke.... it neva fails... hahaha.....

Thursday, October 02, 2003

TriEd sMe quizss...

Kekeke.... had nothing to do so tried some of these stuffs out.... Heheh.....

Happy Deathday!
Your name:Rachel
You will die on:Wednesday, May 30, 2029
You will die of:Car Accident
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Happy Deathday!
Your name:rachiiru
You will die on:Wednesday, April 2, 2031
You will die of:Shark Attack
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Are you a God? by Demonac
Name:
God/Goddess type:God of Confusion
Worshippers:L33t d00dz
They show devotion by:Not working on the sabbath
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Are you a God? by Demonac
Name:
God/Goddess type:God of Mercy
Worshippers:L33t d00dz
They show devotion by:Using your name to curse with
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Who were you in a past life? by Kat007
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You were most probably:A lonely turtle on an island
If not then you were:Augustus Caesar
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Who were you in a past life? by Kat007
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You were most probably:A depressed goldfish
If not then you were:Augustus Caesar
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Which Japanese word are you? by gokumew2
LJ Username
You are:Kisetsu (season)
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Which Japanese word are you? by gokumew2
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You are:Kaze (wind)
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-*-*- CeleBraTioN -*-*-

Cldnt get up this morning even though i slpt kinda earli last nite... told HH not to call me tis morning but he still did... Hmmm.... this guy ah... kinda slpy now manz... *siGhz* Jus came back fr lunch n feelin even slpier... kekek... Woke up this mornin n as usual, checked for msgs in my hp... rec'd 1 from garry... another fr HH... was abt to go bath den Roro msg me to remind me to bring Jymmie's present... kekek... almost forgot tt we were celebrating his bday today... kept tinking tt his bday was next sat... Aiyoz... Tink me goin nuts oredi... Tis wk has been like kinda bz manz...

Anyway was like abt to leave home... was halfway dwn the stairs den remembered tt the paperbag was still on my bed... damn! Had to go up again to get it... haiz... terrible manz... so forgetful... haha... went back up to get it again... kekek... Drank my coffe n talked to Max for awhile... sayang him for awhile b4 leaving the hse... This boy can be so noti at times manz... but today he seemed kinda weird... was like waggin his tail as i approached him... after talkin n sayanging him he sort of calmed down n was like lyin on his fav towel n gettin all comfy.. .preparin to slp again... hahaha... can be so cute at times... shall scan his pic one day n load it in...

Went for late breakfast today since we'd be goin to Compass Point for lunch to celebrate Jymo'z bday... kekek... Came back up at almost 11am... wahaha... Did sme mails den it was like time to go for lunch oredi... Time flew by so fast manz... left for lunch abt 12.30pm or so... reached compass point n we went abt buyin smethings fr Old Chang Kee... Anja, Roro n myself wanted to get YSL fr 7-11 but damn they onli had YSL-ML... ArGh!!! Anja ended up gettin LSS n i shared it with here... *siGhz* taste kinda weird manz... hmm... feels thick oso... hahaha.... hor mdm!! Hmm... Maybe too used t the size n taste of YSL oredi... but seriously lor... the others reali suck BIG TIME!!! *PliaT*

Went to collect the cake with Anja while the others went to Starbucks first... hmmm... we ended reachin Starbucks before them... Found out later tt they went Cold Storage to c if they sold YSL... hmmm... goodness... cant believe tt i actuali forgot tt there was a MaMa shop near the interchange which sells YSL!! aRgH! Anyway we prepared the cake n all n lit the candle as they were walkin to Starbucks... Jymoz was like aaahhh... i knew u all had smething up yr sleeves... as like y wonderin how come i brought the same paperbag out for lunch when i jus brought it to work this morning... n we were like WAh!!! So Clever!!! Hahaha...

Sang him his bday song n all den he opened his present n was like surprised n went like alamak... u all bought brief for me ah... hahah.... when he opened the other pack he was like eh! The tee tt i wanted.... u managed to find it ah... thanks ah... kekeke... of cos managed to find it la jimoz... must c who went to look for it n all mahz... aiyoz... Kekeke... had the cake n anja n chitra were like arguin who was to haf tt piece of strawberry... kekeke... they ended up sharin it...

Jus came back to ofc not too long ago n m kinda bored now... *dUh* Emailin a fren of mine nw n oso updatin my blog... so bored... goodness... Dyin of boredom... HELP~~~ Gonna bug my darlin on how to do the scroll bar thingy for my post soon... hee... Hmm.... she's doin smething to her blog too... eh now she's bz reading smething.... kekek... *peeps @ her* Kakaka.... she din notice though...

Cheche jus called me n asked if i wld be stayin over at her plc tonite... i was like erm... didnt we agree tt u'd come pick me up after dinner tonite? She was like o0o0o... din noe if u wanted to come stay mahz since kailun (Her Soon-to-be husband) wld onli be like comin to my plc at abt 9.30am. I was like oo00ooo.... like tt ah... den i might as well follow my parents to yr plc den since i dun haf to be up so earli... anyway they'd be like goin to yr plc b4 8am... kekek.... so it was settled tt i'd stay home tonite.... yiPpy... kekeke.... Then i'll haf all the time to slowly do my nails later... kekeke...

Nothing much happened so far at wk... evyone's kinda stopped doin emails oredi... as usual we all dun haf the mood to do anything... haha... if possible we dun even feel like comin... haha...

Wednesday, October 01, 2003

--== If U'Re NoT thE oNe ===--

Eeeeehhhhh.... My Darlin said she's sick of wHere iS tHe LovE... sO shAll puT tHis iNsTeAd... lots of meaning to it... one of my favs... Heee.... Counting down to 5.30pm... erm... in another 35min... YeAh!!!

If You're Not The One by Daniel Bedingfield

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

WhAt a DaY TiS hAs BeEn.....

Started doin emails the moment we came up... evything was fine @ first but the more i did the moodier i got... came to a point where i was easilt agitated n irritated... to make things worse the bloody stupid reminder thingy for ONYX kept poppin up... TT reali got me on my nerves manz... DaMn! Was checked my Q when i received smething fr Asrul. Tt bloody idiot was the culprit who triggered my irriated n pissed mood! The sucker cldnt even read n check who escalated the damn thing to him n jus bcos i was the 1st one who escalated the incident to to aother dept, he conveniently escalated it back to me informin me tt i shldnt be sendng it to his side as they dun do recon... blardy fuck! Cldnt he check the audit log?! If onli he did den he wld noe tt the one who escalated it wrongly to their side was sme bimbo fr hotline... wat a prick!!! Tt reali spoilt my mood manz....

Did more wk n ended up being more pissed... arGh! Cant stand these blardy mood swings manz... gettin out of hand.... jus the slightest thing can trigger it... This sickening PT beta not get me on my nerves the next few days manz... Tink i shld jus totally avoid lookin at her direction since the sight n sound of her onli gets me all agitated... Stupid hag! Beh TahAn maNz!!!!

Received a msg fr my didi sayin tt he dislocated his shoulder n tt it wasnt the 1st time!! I was like alamak... how come n all n he was like sayin he didnt noe how he dislocared it n tt he onli had fever the day before n felt alittle pain... Aiyoz... this boy ah... terrible manz... *SiGhZ* told me tt he's at the clinic n had to wear a mask cos he was hafin fever n tt evy1 was like lookin at him n he felt so paisay! haha... wat he said next made me wanna laff even more... he said tt the moment he went in to c the doc, the doc told him tt he was wearing the mask wrongly... feel so bad.... hehe... i was like now u noe y evyone was like lookin at u lor... kekek... " Beta take care wor didi.... "

Received a msg fr Garry.... happened to be on UL cos his mum was sick.. but she's feelin beta now... hmm.... asked me y his PC gets hanged each time he visits my blog... i was like no ah... haf mehz... hmm.... i dun encounter it lehz... "Anyone else's PC gets hang? Must let me noe hor..." He was like sayin so u njoy talkin to yr fren evy nite nowadays rite? Dunno how to describe my feelin at tt moment... din noe whether to feel irritated with him hurt or wat oso... *HmPf!!* Told him to re-read wat i said aft tt since he cldnt quite get wat i meant... n he was like cant... PC hang liao... ArgH! Told him tt he shld read evything b4 makin any comments... dunno y but i was rather pissed... haiz... terrible la...

Was supposed to go for lunch n all but cos of all tt happened it sort of like spoilt my mood... was deciding whether to go or not n of all person... my darlin had to get me on my nerves by shakin my chair... aiyoz... normally im fine with tt n wont get irritated or wat... but i guess evything sort of like built up n this time it reached the peaked of evything! Bcame seriously moody n all... face oso so black... damn! "Sorrie ah Darlin... Hope i didnt get u on yr nerve as well since all of our aunties are visiting at the same time...."

Den HH called n we talked for jus a short while since he had to go back to wk... hmm... msged my did n Garry on n off oso... I guess my mood sort of got beta from den on... kinda cooled off oredi... kekeke... but it got even beta when Gloria left ofc for a meetin den her check-up or smething... cldnt reali hear wat she said... but who bothers... the most impt thing is tt she wont be in ofc for the rest of the day liaos... Hahah... YiPpY!!!!

What a start.....

Yeah m in ofc oredi... kinda earli manz... not used to reachin this earli... haha... roro woke me up at 630am today... kinda drowsy when she called me... cldnt reali hear my hp ring oso... she was like goodness i mustf haf called u so many times.... den i realised tt smewhere in the nite my hp got moved under my pillow.. haha... goodness the ofc stinks again... i wonder y... Hmmm.... will find out y later but i haf a pretty rough idea where its comin from.... thank goodness i haf my carrot cake to overpower tt smell!!!

Kinda slpy though... was supposed to slp earli last nite aft msgin sme pple my new blog addie... but ended up talkin to HH.... its funny how times passes when im talkin to him or even garry n joel... told me abt his day n all... was like hmm.... i c... told me abt the bathin area at the public pool n all... haha... goodness manz... didnt noe such pervertic old men still exists! NO SHAME siaz! Wonder wat they get out of it... such a turn on for them mehz? Still cant figure out y lor...

Seems like im on the line with him pretty much almost evy nite nowadays... Anyway was on the line till abr 2am... *sighz* not tt im complaining or wat though... kinda like it... heee.... but at times i wish tt it was gArry or joel i was talkin to... kinda missed talkin to both of them... hmm... they seem kinda occupied with their work n all... GaRRy's always like msgin tt he's tired tis n tt... *siGhz* Shall not go into tt now or my mood will be affected again.... hehe... feelin kinda hungry... dunno wats wrong with my blog manz... was able to listen to my song yesterday but its gone bonkers now... Oh damn!

Tink me goin dwn soon.... me n my darlin like so busily typin away... hahaha..... but actuali we're not wkin but updatin our blog... kekek... if anja was here oredi she wld be like "stop updatin yr blog oredi... smeone entertain me can?? U blogger! Can we go down now? Im thirsty...." Kekeke... Oops... speakin of the devil... she's jus reached n is givin me tt look like "Wat the fuck are u doin in ofc so earli?" Hahaha.... Mdm.. u look like u jus woke up ah!!! Erm.... tink i beta chow first b4 she kills me... She seems to be in a bad mood today lehz... can oredi hear her tskin away n ventin her frustration on the little poor black mouse of her... Cham manz! Earli in the morning oredi kena abused.....