Tuesday, November 25, 2003

....:: Heart Ached Like It Neva Did B4 ::....

Was supposed to haf gone home aft work for dinner b4 meetin Garry but there was sme last min changes so ended goin to Bishan with Roro first before meeting him.... said tt he'd only be able to pick me ard 10+ before 11... i was like ok lor... In the meantime me n roro will walk ard first...kekek... onli at our first stop n roro ended buying this bag which looked kinda nice... was bright for a change compared to the other bags we haf.... kekeke.... looks kinda nice too. Tink it sort of helped her get her mind of things oso... *siGhz* she's been plagued with so many tots n it's not doin her any good... noe wat it feels like lor... hmm.... hope the few hours we had at Bishan kept things off her mind smeway or rather.... She seemed to be in a good mood thruout the whole time.... was walkin ard n lookin at stuffs but onli bought a mascara... Oh Ya! My 6220 is out le! kekeke.... looks kinda ok.... but gotta feel n touch it to c wat its like first... hmm.... price kinda ok but.... *siGhz* gotta wait till me haf $$$.... broke liaos man... hmmm....

Was like walkin when my darlin called n said tt he was comin to meet me le n i was like Huh!? So fast? Tot u'd onli be able to come later? n he was like xplaining y n all... kekek.. yeAh! Get to meet him sooner den expected! Hee.... Hmmm... was like askin me to get drinks for him n i was wokie... said he'd reach in abt 20 min n i was like ok den dun drive to fast hor take yr time... hehe.... walked ard to get drinks but seemed like we cldnt decide where to get it n wat to get... hahaha.... was like walkin up n dwn n back again.... went to CHarles n Keith on the way as they were like hafin 10% discount storewide n up to 50% for selected items... hmmm.... in the end decided to go back to Mac to get the drink. Was like queing when roro said wanna go Mos burger instead or not n i was like eh ok la den can get the ice milk tea. Heheh... jus as we came out he called n said he'd reached the taxi stand n i was like piangs eh so fast. Roro was like sayin aiyoz u ask him not to drive so fast n he oredi reach if u didnt ask him to drive too fast den he would haf reached even earlier is it? Kekeke.... wo bu zhi dao wo...

Was like walkin towards the overhead bridge n we were like goodness! kena climb the stairs.... kekeke... finally managed to reach the other side but as we were walkin dwn the stairs i happen to spot lizards on the top part of the sheltar... wahlauz eh! Almost freaked me out manz! They were like so close to my head n to make matters worse they looked like they cld jus drop off anytime n land on my head lor... EEEeeeekkkkksssss..... quickly walked dwn the stairs man... dun wan those things to land on my head. Tink i'll jus freak out n faint on the spot lor... YuCkZ! Tinking of it onli makes me wanna scratch my head le.... goose bumps standing oso... Finally reached the car n was like settling dwn n pourin the milk into the tea... kakak... my darlin kept turnin to look at Roro... so scared tt she might spill the milk manz... hehehe... roro was like dun worry... me maybe clumpsy but me will not spill anything in yr car wait kena kick out... hahah... was almost reachin her place n she was like tellin him to turn later but tink my darlin had sme hearin deficiency... he actuali tot he heard roro callin him uncle! Hahaha... Goodness!

Anyway we dropped Roro off n he was like askin so where we goin now... tot for a min den i was like go east coast lor... den he was like erm... k lor... went east coast n walked to Bedok Jetty.... hmmm... the tide last nite was super high manz... hee... different from normal days... anyway walked to the end of the jetty n stayed there for a while lookin at the pple fishin n all. Was like askin me if i'd ever seen pple fishin for sotong or not n i was like nope den he asked if i've seen a live sotong n i was like tryin real hard to recall if i did but sad to say nope... though me like eatin sotong but me no seen a live one before lehz... kekeke... was like standing there hopin to catch a glimpse of one but didnt haf such luck... kekeke... saw sme small fishes playin with the bait though.. hee... kinda fun... told him abt my fishing trip i had with Chris n William n he was like u fish ah... kekek... told him how i learnt hw to fish n wat happened once at Pasir Ris FIshing Pond where my fish hook went haywire n hooked onto Chris... wakakak.... Heng missed by a few cm.... hahaha....

Was njoyin myself... talkin to my baby n lookin out to sea... saw many things... n was mentioning to him tt me saw the model of the HP that i wanted to get... wakakak..... he happened to be wrappin his arm ard me n asked me how much it was n den he jus said when u buyin it? n i was like wait until me haf $$$ lor n he simply said i buy for u lor... PianGZ! So simple as tt ah Darling? I buy for u lor... hahah... tink my baby may haf gone abit bonkers le... evything i wan oso he say i buy for u lor... First say he'd buy the ring for me now say buy me the HP... hahaha... wat else u wanna buy for me huh Darlin? kekekek.... anyway told him i didnt wan him to. Hmmm.... didnt wan him to spend so much... shld be gettin a new hp himself oso... kekek... oso didnt want the 1st gift from him to be the same as the peabrain! A few common things abt them is enaf oredi....

Stayed at the Jetty awhile longer den walked back... as usual my baby had to go to the toilet... kekek... where to find toilet for u? Hmmm.... in the end we went to this plc tt looked like sme sort of a cafe n got a seat. Ordered drinks n sotongball... kekeke... den he was like askin me where the toilet was... hahaha... hello do i look like i noe? wakaka... anyway looked ard n told him it cld be at the back cos it looked like the enterance to one... heheh... was right... hahah... anyway took a sip of my green tea but it didnt taste like green tea at all... asked for a changed n we were right! Ha! The woman opened the can of green tea with lemon or lime or smething like tt for me... Yucks... it tasted more like shandy diluted in water...

Was like talkin n drinkin..... told me abt the time when his license almost kena gantong... hmmm..... so young but oredi havoc... kekek... but was ok la... lucky thing nothin happened... still cld argue in a way with the TP smemore.. hahah.... my baby jus so mischievious n noti at times... ekekek..... like me... Heee.... but tts wat make him my baby... heee.... after awhile we decided to leave n he was like wanna go where? n i was like up to u lor... cant tik of any place to go... was driving when i sort of like held his chin n he was like jokingly sayin beta not play play ah yr mummy said to drive carefully.... didnt noe wat wind got into me but me sort of like got alittle angry by wat he said.... dunno wats wrong with me oso... kinda temperamental the past few days... my mood swings were oso unpredictable.... *siGhz* kept quiet n ignored him for awhile....

Den he was like u wanna go c ah guah not? n i was like anything lor up to u... so he was like ok lor... tried to pacify me a few times but as usual me n my xiao jie chou pi qi la.... argh! cannot tahan myself smetimes.... anyway he gave up tryin to poloso me aft smetime.... was like njoyin the scenary as he drove along n it sort of made my mood beta.... almost went back to normal..... after goin round changi village twice n seein the ah guahs it sort of cheered me up... den he was like u wanna go c the air strip? Hmmmm.... curious n was like ok... den he said he wasnt sure if it was open n all but we still drove towards tt direction... passed a few cars along the way.... wow.... the sight before me was like how to describe lehz.... wasnt reali to die for or wat but it was reali reali nice lor.... in a way kinda romantic... managed to c an plane take off oso.... heee......

My baby was like askin if i wanted to go to changi airport n i was like erm... Changi Airport? Actuali i was quite ok with it since i like goin to the airport n its not like i get to go there all the time... told him anything n it was up to him if he wanted to.... smehow or rather think there was sme sort of miscommunication here.... i was like waiting for his decision n kept quiet while lookin out of the window but i guess he tot tt i was throwing one of my tantrums again n it sort of like pissed him off..... *siGhz* Tis sort of started the whole silent episode..... From here things started gettin worst. He was like sitting there n started sighin but it didnt sound like the normal kind of sigh. was more like the pekcek sort... cld sense tt he was gettin more pissed by the minute... managed to catch a glimpse of him n i was like wahlauz! His face was so black n he looked like he was reali tryin to compase himself n not explode in anger sia.... Scary! Sort of felt afraid out of the blue n had a misture of feelins too.... Neva saw this side of him before since he seldom threw his temper or got angry.... but last nite was diff.....

Dunno how to explain tt feelin... was like a mixture of fear, sad, hurt, anger n evything else all rolled into 1. Aiyoz... jus knew tt it was beta to keep quiet n not agitate him further... den suddenly it seemed like it felt tt he'd controlled n composed himself long enaf n he simply said den go home la.... wahlauz... no head no tail nothing jus tt... for a min i was like surprised den aft tt it sort of made me angry... i knew tt he was tired oredi n tt he felt agitated over wat had happened but he cld haf said it in a nice tone or at least in a tone tt didnt sound so..... fierce n angry! Aiyoz.... didnt dare say anything n kept quiet... his face was black enaf n i was oredi feelin my temper startin so tot it best to not say a word... he made a u-turn which i cld tell was done at the spur of moment when he was reali angry cos he neva drove in tt way eva... was driving rather fast oso which was fne by me since i love the speed.... but smehow or rather the whole journey back seemed different.... felt hostile n distant n anger added into it

Anyway as we reached the carpark i got off the car n started walkin home. He was oso walkin me to my door but a distance away. Tis moron didnt even say a thing n all n it sort of made me angrier.... was so pissed me walked straight home n unlocked the gate n door n simple closed it without even lookin at him the whole time or even sayin goodbye. The minute i closed the door, i hesitated n immediately felt sad n guilty over wat i'd done to him. Aiyoz.... started regrettin n all n i was like feelin reali shitty... msged him tellin him tt i was sorrie n tt i knew tt it was my fault n all but there wasnt any reply so went up to my room n called him.

Took him smetime to answer the call n when he did he sounded reali moody n pissed n sounded like he didnt wanna talk to me since he kept askin me to go bath n when i asked him y n was it cos he didnt wanna talk to me he actuali gave such a lame reason by sayin he was driving! Wat the ^%#^#! He cld talk to me n be driving at the same time many a times previously but jus not able to last nite? I was like k fine i get the drift tt u dun wanna talk to me so fine.... Said sorrie again den ended the call still feelin guilty but more hurt n sad.... msged him n told him not to drive too fast n tt actuali i wanted him to make a u-turn back cos i wanted so badly to hug n kiss him. Told him i was sorrie for evything n to drive safely n carefully n also msg me when he got home. All he replied was tt he was oredi at Stevens Rd.... Goodness! it wasnt even 10 min ago n he was oredi at Stevens Rd? I can imagine how fast he was goin! Told him nvm den... was feelin worried for him which was the norm... always felt worried when he drove home alone... jus haf this thing in me tt one day smething might happen to him.... jus hope this premonition of mine doesnt come true wldnt know wat i'd do if it reali did....

Msged roro n was like tellin her wat happened n how guilty n sad it made me feel n she was like sayin dun worry la its jus a small miscommunication n it'd be alrite after he wakes up tmw.... told her i hope so lor since i'd neva seen him angry n behave the way he did last nite. Sort of scared me n all.... didnt noe wat to tink or feel oso..... felt kinda lost oso... heart ached like nobody's business man! Neva felt like tis before. Was like tellin her tt it wasnt this way the last time when i was with Chris... neva behaved or felt like how i did last nite when it happened... sort of felt frighten tt things btw us wld worsen... goodness! me reali felt tt paranoid last nite... was worried.... treasure this relationship tt im hafin... sort of feels like he's the one i've been lookin for n wanting all my life n now tt i've found him i wldnt be able to keep him for long.... Aiyoz.... tink me startin to get paranoid again... Anyway talked to her for awhile n decided to go slp.... all the cryin made me kinda tired n slpy....

Hmmm.... woke up evy now n then to look at my hp to c ig my baby msged me but he didnt... tried goin back to slp den woke up again..... each time i tot of the incident from when i got out of his car to the moment i close the door i wld always start cryin.... its like in a way i felt tt if things were to happen i wld be the cause of it since i started it n i ended it by not sayin a thing nor even lookin at him even before i close the door... its like in a way i felt tt all these symbolised smethings n fear tt it wld reali happen.... *siGhz* tryin not to tink too much abt it now or let my imagination run wild....

Woke up this morning n was contemplatin whether or not to msg him or wait to c when he'd msg me but i jus cldnt resist the urge of takin my hp n be the one to msg him first.... didnt noe wat to msg oso... so jus msge him good morning darlin n he replied morning... aiyoz.... added on to my fear.... Anyway msged him abt last nite n apologised again n he was like nvm forget abt it. hmmm... all his replies sounded hostile n distant.... told him tt i wasnt able to forget it n oso y n for no reason me started cryin again! Aiyoz!!! Like a cry baby man! Goodness! Told him tt since he didnt feel like talkin abt it tt i wldnt bother him now n asked him to call me when he felt like it.... den received anpother msg from him askin me how n wat he was like last nite. Told him how he looked like n how i felt during the whole time....

Anyway my darlin called me almost immediately after i sent the msg n we talked abt it.... told him how i felt n he oso said how he felt. Told him tt i knew tt it was my fault n wat i did was uncalled for n i knew tt he must haf fely angry n hurt when i didnt say anything to him..... den after awhile he was like nvm jus promise u wont do it again k? Told him i promise n all.. den he was like even if my face black or if im angry u can talk to me wan... its beta if u do oso den iwldnt stay angry for long. It's very easy for me to not be angry aft tt.... How can i stay angry at my baby for too long leh? *sob* *sob* Dunno y but me felt so relieved after hearing wat he'd said n all....

Told him how i felt the whole time n asked him if he knew how much he meant to me. Also asked him how much i meant to him n he was like dear dear u noe smetimes i dunno how to express myself n how i feel rite.... u tell me first la. Heee... of cos i noe lor.... my sotong baby how can i not noe rite? Hee.... Anyway told him how much he meant to me n tt smetimes it takes small things to happen like wat happened yesterday for one to realise how much the other person means to them. N he was like sayin huh onli after wat happened last nite den u realise how much i mean to u ah? n i was like no la... i knew how much u meant to me ever since after wat happened btw us after i came back fr Bintan but tt was diff since we werent together at tt point of time but now its different...

Told him tt in a way its even more realistic n all... more feelins poured in n us being together n goin thru life n our relationship together... sharin tots, feelins n frustrations.... hee.... from den on things got so much beta.... we managed to get over wats happened n moved on.... Talked abt our short stay tts gonna be comin reali soon... kekeke... lookin forward to it..... Den decided to end the call since he had to go eat lunch n start his painting... Heee.... Wat im gonna be sayin next is smething ive neva said to anyone before.... Surely kena suan tmw but wat the heck.....

Darlin although we've onli been together for less then a month but the feelins we haf for each other developed n accumulated back a year or 2 ago... Evything we've shared n gone thru back den adds on to wat we're goin thru now, makin evything n this whole experience btw us even more meaningful n fulfilling... All that we've been thru n tts happened the past few yrs, n all these tts happening now means too much to me for me to eva want to lose it at all.... I've neva felt this way for smeone before nor has anyone affected me this way... except U.... Thank U for being who u reali r the whole time... for being there wheneva i needed u most n for loving me thruout the whole time.... The love i haf for u is more than wat words can explain.... its undescribable.... I Love U Baby....

Monday, November 24, 2003

....:: Wat a Week it's been ::....

Fwah! The past week went by superly fast... kekek... was supposed to be back on thur but me was so sick me decided to take MC instead... was on leave on friday n den the weekend passed. Hmmm.... went out with my darlin on wed, fri n den again on sat. kekeke.... was so happy he actuali wanted to meet me on sat.... tot tt since he was gonna be painting his hse we wldnt get to meet until today.... but still we did. Came to pick me up on sat.... was tinking to myself on sat when i woke up tt it was gonna be a long day since i had no plans. But who knew... kekek... zhizhi called me at abt 3+ askin me if i wanted to meet her since she wanted to go perm her hair. Was like ok can oso lor since i was free n garry hadnt confirm the time he was able to meet me.... was in the process of confirming the time with her n msgin garry at the same time... was to meet her at Cineleisure once i finished preparin n all.... weather was so dark sia... aiyoz...

Was abt to go bath when my medication took its effect. suddenly felt superly drowsy so msged zhizhi tt i was gonna take a short nap first... kekek... was abt to doze off when i suddenly remembered tt i had not ask my aunt abt my cousin's PSLE result... hmmm.... seems like either this yr's paper was pretty easy or the kids tis yr were intelligent... y cousin had 2As n 1B... kekek.... flunked his chinese... kekek... it runs in the family but thank god i managed to pass mine... anyway my neighbour's kid had smething like 3As n 1B, another cousin of mine had 2As n 2Bs while my mum's colleagues son had 3As n 1A*... piangz.... genius or wat? kekek.... anyway onli managed to slp abt 4+... *siGhz* managed to doze off but was awoken by a call from my darlin.... kekek... said he was able to come pick me n wld be reachin ard 6-6.15pm hee... YiPpY!!

Supposed to meet zhi at the salon but since there was this jam from somerset all the way to taka, msged n told her tt we'd meet her directly at the Jap rest. She was sayin tt she was super hungry n i told her not to worry cos my darlin was equally famished! Wakaka.... Msged roro oso n asked if it was packed... anyway we finally got there n was like wala even managed to get to seat at the table next to then... haha... ordered our dinner... n was "forced" by roro to eat the bday cake.... hmpf... me so sick oredi still ask me eat. smemore said she'd give me a small piece... goodness her small was jus not small lor... aiyoz... was kinda bao after eatin her cake sia... kekek...

Anyway decided to talk a walk since we were all so full... aiyoz... its always like tt each time we eat there lehz... can explode manz... as usual zhizhi was like goin Im feelin slpy n want to slp... *siGhz* Give up... was tellin my darlin tt it was a good thing i wasnt feelin irritated or wat tt day or else i wld haf told her off.... piangz... evytime oso like tt dunno tired cos of wat! Wateva la... took a walk to Heeren n was in the Annex n decided to take Neoprint.... Hee... was busy choosing which machine to take n decided on the one where we cld change the color of the curtain... *hMpf!* me tot tt it was the card type but actuali was the sticker kind... felt slightly cheated but was ok cos the pic turned out quite ok... hahah... Had fun meddling with the pic since evything was in Jap n we cldnt make out wat was being said. Hahah... all we heard was ne ne n more ne.... hahah....

Wanted to take another pic with my darlin but the stupid plc was oredi closing n most of the machines were like shut off oredi... Gan Chiong manz! Cldnt wait slightly longer mehz... haiz... anyway we were like makin our way out when i was like sayin lets go to cineleisure. tink there's sme machines there... alamak... the plc where they had those machines oredi close down sia... so we took the escalator dwn n i was like eh y didnt tink of goin upstairs to check on the tickets for Lord of the Rings? Aiyoz... the marathon ones sold out oredi manz! So fast! Decided to take the lift down n go for coffe since my darlin had cravings for it den.... stopped at one of the floors n guess wat! Kel n Roro were outside... kekeke... in the end they came in n we were like talkin n i was like tinking to myself eh wat time was it oredi... Goodness! pass 11 oredi manz... Aiyoz... time always pass so fast when im with him... *HmPf!!*

Anyway told roro tt we were goin to Mezzanine n asked if they wanted to join us... as usual they cldnt decide lor.... so told them tt if the wanna come along den jus come lor... started walkin there n for a moment i was like eh where are they huh? R they behind us? So they joining us or not? Alamak.... spotted them almost immediately n they still cldnt decide. Hmmm... in the end they came along... kekeke.... was kinda crowded n wasnt much seats left so sat smewhere in front near the band... Hmmm.... rather entertaining tt day... surprised tt there were a few performances by different bands.... lasted pass midnite oso... normally they wld haf called it a day by then... was pretty much enjoyin ourselves but as usual the bubble had to be burst by our piglet who wanted to go home cos she was slpy n had classes the next day. *SiGhz*

Not tt we cant understand or c things from her point of view but Roro n myself felt tt it was still early to go home on a sat n furthermore the music n atmosphere tt nite was good.... wanted to stay longer but got pestered to go... beh tahan sia... this roro oso one kind! can pretend to ignore her when she mouthed to her tt she wanted to leave. I wasnt any beta oso la... kekek... kept talkin to my darlin... kekeke... roro oso followed suit la... kekeke.... we were like tryin not ignore the fact tt she wanted to leave cos we didnt n oso didnt noe wat to tell her. My darlin was like sayin we were so bad cos roro n myself were like msgin each other abt this n was like goin so how n all... kekeke... bo pianz la... He then said y dun we send her home firat den decide where to go aft tt lor.... aiyoz... so sweet of him... Was sort of like stuck at taka for awhile cos my darlin had to top-up his cashcard... Hee... Dear ah next time u haf to tell me if u wan me to follow u hor... me can be quite blur at times wan lehz... k? k? kekeke.... *MuAcKz*

Asked for the bill n all den went to the ladies.... kekek... was touching up n zhizhi was like sayin u all goin home still touch up? But we jus ignored wat she said n continued doin our own things... aiyaz cannot be bothered much oredi la... kekek.... noe it;s kinda bad but smetimes i tink we jus gotta be lor... Cant always tink or keep in mind how others will feel wat or else evything wld be so restricted n all.... Guess she shld noe oso la... i mean y wld we send her home first when kel n roro were still in the car. If we were all goin back den Roro shld be the first to alight followed by Kel den herself mahz.... aiya bo chap oredi la... kekek.... decided to go to the prata plc since we had no idea where to go.... wasnt reali hungry but the moment i ordered the drinks me started gettin hungrier... piangz... ended orderin Bee Hoon Goreng which neva came.... pissed me off sia plus hungry oso... ended payin jus for the drinks n roro's mee goreng n walked out of tt sickening place! HnG!!

After sending Roro n Kel back, Garry was like askin if i wanted to go eat n all but i didnt cos i was still fedup.... so he sent me home... walked me to my hse n I was kinda reluctant to let him go... Asked him if he was tired n he said alittle... i knew he was but he kept sayin he wasnt... Asked him y n he said cos if he did den i wld haf asked him to go home earlier since he was tired which he didnt want to... heee.... silly guy wor.... Anyway went home n called hm aft bathing... was at CCK. Talked to him for ahile before askin me to go slp... told him to msg me when he got home... hee... Lub u Darling!! *MuacKz* Reali njoy myself wheneva im out with u although smetimes we dunno where to go but still it was ok since u were with me....

Sunday was kinda ok too... woke up ard 12+ den had lunch... had to prepare to go to church since sara's confirmation was at 3... but we had to be there an hr earlier... Goodness i cld haf fallen aslp sia... almost did a few times... ekekek... lucky my cousin was like talkin to me so it sort of kept me awake... hahah.... evything ended n i reached home abt 5+... decided to take a nap since i was feelin slpy. Kekek... got woken up at abt 6 cos we were supposed to meet my aunt for dinner... aiyoz... lucky me got up in time manz... was like goin to wash up when evyone was abt to leave the hse... Alamak... got ready in the fastest speed eva! Hahaha.... had dinner n was ready to explode manz... hee... went up to my room n was like feelin slpy.... msged my darlin earlier but there wasnt any reply so tot tt he went to slp cos he woke up rather earli to paint his hse again... aiyoz this guy paint so fast manz... kekek...

Was lazin on bed when he replied tt he was watchin the Charity Show... Oh Ya! Me almost forgot abt it but was too lazy to go dwn lehz... kekek.... decided to go dwn anyway since my dad was still in his room... hahah... gonna ba zhan the tv before he goes dwn n decides to watch sme orbiang show of his again... kekeke.... :P My Darlin called awhile later n we talked n decided where to go... hehe... mentioned sentosa for the fun of it n he was like ok lor... PiaNgz! Super sia this guy! Hahah.... suddenly had a few options n i was like errr... so where we goin huh? Hahah... decided to go to either East Coast or Sentosa..... Hmmmm..... it raining so heavily at my plc now... aiyoz... wondering if it's raining at either places oso or not.... Hmmm..... where we'll end up at tis time i wonder..... But whereva it is, I'll still njoy myself cos I have my Baby with me... Heee.....

Wednesday, November 19, 2003

It's Killing Me.....

Slept earli last nite since i wasnt reali feelin too good still.... feelin sucks big time manz! Msged my darlin aft dinner but he only replied me sme time later. Said he'd jus finished mopping the floor and tt he was goin to take a bath first before callin me... ok lor... wat else can i say rite? *siGhz* Miss him so much.... Ulcers seems to haf erupted last nite... made me superly moody n irritated the past few days... even till now... n to agitate myself further, i had to haf a sorethroat of all times... Damn! Reali lor... the timing cldnt haf gotten beta siaz... ArGh~~~ Reali cannot tahan... Killing me... How much longer will tis continue? I oso dunno.... seems like i've done evything possible but nothings workin lor... Stufiak manz!!!

Was finally able to talk to my darlin but after awhile me got supely irritated n sort of flared n vented my frustrations at him... Felt bad after tt n said sorrie to my darlin but he was like super understanding n sweet to me lor.... said its if i wanted to vent my anger n all on him if it make me feel beta... also said tt he understood y i was behaving this way n all... alamak... made me feel even more guilty sia... Aiyoz... tis guy's always makin me feel tis way esp when i noe tt im at fault... How like tt? *SiGh* Dunno to feel happy or wat oso... Hee...

Was talkin to Jymmie n roro n told them tt it can be funny n weird at times cos it seems like he knows n understands me too well tt smetimes i feel like i dunno myself. He wld like noe wat i tink or how i feel or why i react in a certain way or manner when i myself dunno or cant explain y... scary manz! It's only after he's said it den i'd like rationalise n realise tt tts the reason for my behaviour... wld be like errr... eh... yeah hor.... *tSk* *TsK* *tsK* Goodness! Can be kinda freaky oso lehz... kekeke.... but in a way, im glad he's like tis... kekeke.... happy tt i've found smeone whose able to understand me n is sensitive enaf... hmm... Den again is he reali tt sensitive?? Kekek... I wont say all the time la but usually he is... though he can be rather S.L.O.W at times too... kekeke... But tts my darlin lor.... blur blur at times..... hehe....

Throat started feelin weird the whole day n by the time i was ready for bed it felt worst!! It's gotta to Sara... the culprit has been sick eva since she came back from camp... Been coughin like nobody's business the whole day! Hasnt gone to c the doc smemore... was sayin her throats so painful each time she swollows anything! *HmPf!!!* U Virus Carrier!!!! Now u're starting to spread the germs n evything else to evyone ard u.... ArGh~~~ Beh tahan...

Mails reali low today... did less than 30 n was oredi so free since lunchtime... talked to jymmie for quite awhile... said he read my blog the other day... kekeke... told him abit abt Garry n all... was like updatin him here n there.. kekek... been a long time since we reali sat down n talked oredi. Was like asking wat Garry's star sign was n i said Aries... den he asked so u checked both yr star signs oredi not? I was not nope... so decided to go check it out at his PC... kekeke.... Jymoz kinda into these kind of things... kekek... anyway here's wat it says:

When Aries and Scorpio come together, it can be the kind of relationship where the two partners wonder how they ever managed apart. Both partners in this relationship love power, and if they learn to work together instead of against each other they can achieve anything they want. Scorpio is more focused and more determined than Aries, while Aries gets things started the way both partners want. Even though Aries can be fiercely loyal, Scorpio has a deeper and more complex devotion to the partnership. This can be a very goal-oriented relationship. It tends to be highly passionate and often argumentative, because both partners have jealous tendencies. Scorpio tends to be more patient, but is also more possessive than Aries. But despite their differences, both partners love risk and taking chances; this is not a boring relationship! Aries and Scorpio can have lots of adventures together. At times they can have difficulty understanding each other, because Aries is an extrovert, up front and open, while Scorpio is more introverted with their feelings. Both partners need to meet on neutral ground once in a while and work out a truce! Aries and Scorpio are both ruled by the Planet Mars, and Scorpio is also ruled by Pluto.

When two people with Mars' energy come together, it's like two players meeting on a battlefield: they're either allies or deadly enemies. Mars also represents passion, so Aries and Scorpio tend to have an exciting time together. Both meet challenge head-on, so it's normal for them to argue all the time -- making up is something to look forward to! Pluto adds an extra intensity to this dynamic. Aries is a Fire Sign and Scorpio is a Water Sign. These two elements can be a great combination if they work together, using emotion and physical action to get things done. Scorpio is a strategist, and can help Aries slow down and learn how to plan battles before jumping into them. Aries teaches Scorpio to let go and move on when their efforts are thwarted. But Scorpio can be emotionally manipulative, too much Water dampening Aries' enthusiasm. Conversely, too much Fire can burn the Water away and drive Scorpio to seek revenge. Aries and Scorpio must plan and work together instead of separately to maintain their balance. Aries is a Cardinal Sign and Scorpio is a Fixed Sign. Aries gives Scorpio the initiative to do things just for the experience, rather than always having an agenda in mind.

Scorpio can help Aries stabilize and finish things rather than jumping into new projects without completing the old ones. But they are both loyal and devoted to each other, and when they can understand that they can both be the boss -- Aries as the initiator and Scorpio as the emotional leader -- they can accomplish a great deal together. The best aspect of the Aries-Scorpio relationship is the power of their combined forces. They can accomplish a lot, particularly when they believe in the same cause. They are both winners and they won't give up, making theirs a relationship that never settles for second best.


Kekeke.... Jymoz oso said he told Marcus tt i was attached oredi n tt fella was like wow so fast?! Kekeke... was talkin n we planned to go out again smetime in Dec after Hari Raya.... Kekek.... said tt he wanted to c how Garry looks like n all... heheh.... heard alot abt him but yet to c him... Hee.... soon la soon.... jus dun scare him can oredi... kakak... my Darlin rather shy at times lehz... kekeke...

Oh ya! Talkin abt my Darlin... kekeke... RoRo me forgot to tell u tt i finally cut off his nail on sunday! Hahah.... Den he said he not used to it cos used to play with the last nail... buakaka... Hmmm..... wondering wat he's doin now... shld be finishin work soon.... Miss my Darlin so much.... *sigh* One more day to go b4 i get to meet him....

Tink shall go get Strepsils from Guardian later at AMK Mrt..... Cannot take it... painful manz... dun wan it to get worse... *cross my fingers n toes* Hate fallin sick... Haiz... gum feels kinda swollen oso... oh pls oh pls~~~ me dun wanna fall sick.... always fall sick during the festive period wan... Sad sia! *sob* *sob* Goin town later with Roro... hope my mood improves then...

Monday, November 17, 2003

Start to Another Week.....

ArGh!!! Tis is reali killin me manz! Cannot take it... Worst hit of ulcers one can eva go thru!!! Feelin so irritated the whole day all cos of those stupid tiny winy small lumps on my tongue. SiCkENinG!!!~~~ Tink will go c the doc aft wk today... been sufferin from these stupid things since last wed until now n its still not ok yet... Goodness!! U wont be able to imagine how much coolin stuff i've been drinkin the past few days sia!!! Wahlauz... all those herbal drinks n all which i die die oso wont drink last time! *Eekz* *Pliak* Feel like pukin sia... but LL... still drank it up....

To make matters worst, i feel too free now n have nothing to do... *siGhz* Wat a boring tiresome long routine start it has to be for this week... stats low n its onli mon... goodness! God noes wat it gonna be like the rest of the week... as it is... we've decided to do like onli 40 today... Can imagine wat it'll be like... worst than last week sia.... gotta find things to do liaos.... Thank god i'll onli be workin until thur tis week since i applied for leave on friday... YipPpY! Cant wait for Friday to be here...

Apart from today being wat it oredi is... my weekend went-by greatly... *siGhz* y did it haf to end lehz???? Went home aft work n was talkin to my darlin on the way back... continued talkin to him den ended the call when his bro woke up... was gonna talk to him den let me noe wat time he'd be able to come pick me up... kakak... finally got to meet him again... was lazin on bed den decided to take a short nap since i was like suddenly attacked by the zonk monsters... hahah... woke up ard 7+ jus in time for dinner... went dwn n evyone was like EH! Wat u doin at home today? Not goin out ah? I was like duh.. me hafin dinner first la... Garry called when i was halfway thru dinner n said he'd be abke to reach my place ard 8+ n i was like oki lor... finished dinner n was like washin the dishes when one-by-one they had to purposely come n stack their plates in the basin for me to wash! *HmPf!!* I was like EH! Im rushin for time lehz n papa was like where u goin?! N i jus said out la.. U all doin it on purpose is it? Finished washin wateva tts left n went to go prepare...

Hee... Jus came out of the bathroom when he msged n said tt he'd be slightly late... Kekek... Heng! Took my time n by the time i was done he called n said tt he'd jus reached! Wakaka... perfect timing! Went down n onli papa n gradpa were at home... Hmmm... told my dad tt i was leaving n he was like erm... ya ok... la la la la... went out n Oo0o... my darlin smelt so good as always... kekek... dun tink i'll eva get sick of smellin him... hehe... decided to go dwn town to get our tickets for sat n he was like sayin we cld hang ard town aft tt den go pick his sis-in-law n i was like wokie... before we knew it, his sis-in-law was like msgin him tellin him tt she was gonna be leaving at 10.30pm... Hmmm.... k lor... went to 7-11 to get a drink den went back to the car to fetch her... while in the car he was like wats tt u takin n i was like erm... smething for u lor... n he was like hee... can i c? Kakak... Guess he liked wat i gave him... kekek... *mUacKz*

Went to fetch his sis-in-law n was like sending her home... goodness! tt moment in the car was torturous sia! Perfect silence... kekek.... didnt noe wat to say n all... superly quiet when suddenly my hp rang... *pHew* Alamak... was zhizhi... talked to her n she was like askin where u now? with who? tis n tt n i was like alamak... cannot talk so loud lehz... told her tt i'd msg her later n answered wateva i cld while talkin to her... kekek... aiyoz... stressful sia... den Garry was like y u so quiet? n i was like err... nothing ah... hehe...paisay lehz! Den he started talkin to me askin me if i knew where i was n all... Hmmm... thanks ah darlin... u noe me neva been to tt part of spore n yet u ask me? Huai Dan! was like tinkin to myself y haven we reached yet? Kekeke... the journey was kinda long manz... finally reached CCK n i was like tinking to myself oh yes! We've reached... :P

Was like askin him where limbang market was.... errr... spellin correct or not ah? Hmmm... wateva la... n he was like there jus over there lor in the centre of the blocks n asked me y n i was like o0o0... so near... tts where Jymmie stays... hehe... anyway he was like erm... y jus now u so quiet huh? I was like aiyoz paisay mahz so didnt talk lor... u cld haf talked to me n i wld haf answered wat... kekeke... den offered him some drink n he was like how come jus now neva offer me n den come n offer n i was like aiyoz... paisay la! heheh... he was like askin wanna go home to put the bears first den we go out n i was like okie lor... so off we went to his plc.... kakak... was like sayin he feelin slpy n almost dozed off earlier on... oops... hee..... took the lift n went we reached i was like wah so high manz... n so dark... cant reali c much of the scenary lehz... was hopin to catch a glimpse of smething.... hahah...

Anyway went in to his place... saw his nephew's toys... kekek... so typical... long time since me entered a hse tt had children's toy lying ard... kekek... went to c his fish n they look kinda cute but weird at the same time... both were like in the same position sia... hehe... slpin smemore... Hmmmm.... anyway went to his room n he was like messy abit... actuali... i find it rather neat oredi... hahah... compared to sme other rooms tt ive been to his was like one of the cleaness n neatess oredi n yet he was still complaining tt it wasnt... Hmmm... was kinda impressed tt his room was tt neat.. kekek... wait till he sees how "neat" mine is den he'll noe the meaning of untidy.. hahah... was like lookin ard when he asked if i wanted to c his photos n i was like okie... took his pic album out to show me n i was like kekek... wahsay this is u ah? hehehe... choo cute... but the baby pic doesnt reali look like him lehz... hahah... maybe slight resemblence la... Den he was like on the aircon for u or else wait smeone complain hot...

Flipped thru the album n all when i saw his army photos... Hmm.... y do army guys all look alike? Kakak... sme of them looked kinda familiar... hmmm.... wonder where ive seen them before.... anyway he was like bein ultra sweet n was like come me an mo for u... i was like fwahsay... so good... kekek.. wokie wokie... was at it for a long time n i was like eh yr hand not tired ah? U continue longer n i wld fall aslp here oredi... den he was like k lor... den my turn... wahaha.... so clever... hmm... k la... jus for u... heheh.... an mo for awhile n i was like my hand suan oredi wor... kekek... he was feelin kinda tired n slpy n actuali took a nap... alamak tis guy ah... kekek... lied dwn next to him n was like lookin at the way he slpt... kekeke... jus when i was abt to drift into slp he woke up... aiyoz... den he was like tired ah? n i was like err... abit lor... decided to jus lie there n rest for awhile... kakak... awhile bcme slightly longer... den wala! Hahah.... was supposed to be slpin n restin but instead my darlin bcme more awake n started being noti... kekeke.... o0o0o.... hmmm..... starting to get personal liaos... Anyway.... things happen for a reason n like wat i told Chitra the unexpected always happens when u least expect it to... kakaka....

We decided tt it was time to send me back.... Was like gettin ready to go home... combed my hair n was like oops... alot of hair on yr bed n floor lehz... kekeke... my darlin started pickin every strain up.... wahaha... i was like aiyoz dear dear u like some cleanliness freak lehz... kekek... n he was like aiyoz me cannot stand hafin strains of hair lyin ard.... was true though his floor was like spotless when i first stepped into his room.... bed was oso neatly made n all... kekek.... tink i cld live with a guy like him... den my room would be clean all the time liaos.. wakaka.... was like tellin him tt he was behavin like smeone who was hafin an affair n clearin up the evidence... kekek...

Anyway finally left his place n reach home abt 4.... Dunno y bt me suddenly felt tired n slpy sia... wash up n was like lyin in bed waiting for his msg but i tink me dozed off... kekek.... OopS!~~ Onli read his msg when i woke up in the aftnoon... kekek.... msged him if he was awake n he repied tt he jus woke up.... called my hse awhile later n was like talkin to him... kekeke.... was discussin on the time to meet n all... was finally goin to ikea aft so long... yippy... cant wait to meet my darlin again... complained to him tt i had to go buy smething for my grandpa b4 leavin n he was so sweet... said he'd go get smething on his way den i wldnt haf to go opp to buy it n come back again... So Sweet of my Darlin to do tt.... Picked me up n it sort of started drizzlin... bought popiah n drinks for me oso.... wakak.... bought my lemon kiss smemore... how did he noe i felt like drinking tt? Kekekek.... Thanks Baby!~

Went to his plc to pass the keys to his bro den went dwn to finish wateva tt was left of the popiah... yum yum... tasted good... kekek... den suddenly he was like sayin eh my mum n weiwei.... Froze for a min n was like lookin n him den he was like at the bus-stop... Aiyoz! This guy ah! Almost gave me a heartattack sia! PeNgz! kekeke.... turned to look n saw them... aiyoz... his mum looked kinda fierce lehz... weiwei looked so cute sittn at the bus-stop... kekeke.... waited for them to take the bus before we walked towards tt direction... went to ikea n there was like so many things to c... aiyoz super pack oso.... by the time we were done it was oredi abt 7plus... went to anchorpoint but since there was nothin much we decided to go down town... wanted to take the bus but since we both were like idiots when it came to wat bus to take to where we took a cab... kekek... went to the jap place for dinner n was like superly full sia... kekeke.... by the time i came out of the toilet it was time to walk to Cineleisure for our movie....

Caught the movie... was sittin next to tis grp of guys... alamak... wat are they doin sitting at the couple seat when they didnt even lift the handles up... goodness! Hmmm.... the show was a disaster... wasted not onli our time but oso money sia... dun tink i'll wanna watch any Korean horror movies liaos... sad sia... kekek... walked ard but didnt noe where to go in the end we decided to go home... was home abt 12.10am on a sat n evyone was like shocked n surprised to c me back so earli... kekeke.... talked to my darlin for awhile n told him to go slp since he was feelin tired again... Aiyoz i swear he's been feelin tired n slpy more often the past week than the whole time i've known him sia... always slpy... kekeke... like a baby... hahah... was like tinking to myself when i'd be able to meet him again.... *siGh* I oso dunno... Miss Him oredi....

Was like tinking that i wont get to meet him until friday when i decided to go Novena Sq to meet my sis... msged n asked if he wanted to go too n he was like ok... was deciding the time to meet when he was like sayin its very dark at his plc... aiyoz... told him tt if it starts to rain to not meet me n he was like i try to be ready n leave before it starts raining... was like ok n went to get ready as well... jus when i finished bathin he msged me n said tt he it was raining... argh... sickening weather.... was slightly disappointed since i reali wanted to meet him... aft awhile he was like sayin tt he was leavin soon n it was drizzling... hmmm... wasnt tt sure if it was onli drizzlin or whether he said tt it was jus to appease me.... anyway was lookin forward to meetin him. Reached before him n was like walkin ard... van called n said she was waitin for the bus to come meet me as well... He called at the same time n was like me dao le n asked where i was... kekek... sotong didnt noe where to exit so i said tt i'd go down n meet him... kekek....

walked ard n me ended buyin 2 pairs of shoes... wahlauz.. beh tahan... so unfair... both van n him tagged team against me... *HmPF!!* Each time i said smething was nice or wat they would take turns to say nice ah den buy lor... HnG~~~ So bad of them wan... purposely make me xing yang yang... cos of tt me spend a bomb... had no where else to go n was decidin where to go n van was like we go far east la... Alamak... tis ger ah... jus came from far east n now wans to go back there... aiyoz... in the end we went to Plaza Sing.... piangz eh.... superly pack on a sun! Cannot tahan.... heard tt 5566 was there together with Bryan Wong n Kim Ng... Hmmm.... no wonder so many kids la... waited for van's fren who asked her if Garry was her bro! WahLauz! Look alike mehz? Hahah.... Van was like sayin must be the eye la... hahah.... mi mi....

Anyway my baby was hungry so decided to go eat... ended hafin dinner at Cafe Cartell... piangz! Kena ketok by my sis ah!!!! Thank god she doesnt come out with me tt often sia... hahah... She made Garry go thru this so-called interview session n he was like stuck n didnt noe how to answer her there n then. Was kinda disappointed at some point when he didnt answer her cos i oso very much wanted to know wat his reply was... kept quiet after awhile since i didnt wanna make matters worse... both our faces were like black enaf... van kept askin us if we were both ok or not... hmm.... ahah... almost scared her sia... kekeke... anyway aft awhile we were ok n went back to normal... kekek.... walked ard n sat at Baker's Inn n was like takin den remembered tt Van's hp had camera function n told her to take a pic of us... Hahaha.... cannot take it sia... tink we took abt 5 or 6 pic b4 we were finally able to snap one which looked ok... kekek.. My darlin neva smiled wor... always laffed onli after the pic was taken... aiyoyoz... kekeke..... thank god the last one tt we took he was like busily laffin when Van snapped it... kekek... was like sayin his mouth suan smemore... kekekek..... lucky thing no flash or i wld haf seen stars by then... hahah....

Sat awhile longer n decided to go home... We were supposed to take the train back but in the end we were all so lazy we ended up takin cab home... kekek... as usual la.... reached home showed my mum the shoes i bought n all den went to take a bath. Called him once i finished evything n was like talkin to him when i stated complainin abt my ulcers again.... arGh... irritatin... told me to go dwn n drink the drink n tt he'd wait until i finish before we went to slp... hee... choo chweet my darlin.... went dwn n was abt to open the drink when i realised tt mummy actuali cooked the bitter gourd n pineapple soup... heated up the soup n drank it instead... hahah... talked to him while i drank n asked him the qns which he didnt ans earlier when we were hafin dinner.... happy to hear wat he told me n all... hee... was like talkin abt the future n stuffs oso... *SiGhz* after smetime told him to go slp since the zonk monster had attacked n overpowered him... kekeke.... went to slp soundly yesterday... dreaming of my darlin... kekeke.... *MuAcKz* Lafu U Larling!!! -hUgz-

Miss my darlin.... wonder if i'd be able to meet him before friday but i doubt so... Hmmm.... very unlikely... jus haf to wait till fri lor... Eehhh jus realised tt i'll onli be meetin him once tis week since he'd be bz painting his hse over the weekend... *siGhz*