Was like walkin when my darlin called n said tt he was comin to meet me le n i was like Huh!? So fast? Tot u'd onli be able to come later? n he was like xplaining y n all... kekek.. yeAh! Get to meet him sooner den expected! Hee....
Hmmm... was like askin me to get drinks for him n i was wokie... said he'd reach in abt 20 min n i was like ok den dun drive to fast hor take yr time... hehe.... walked ard to get drinks but seemed like we cldnt decide where to get it n wat to get... hahaha.... was like walkin up n dwn n back again.... went to CHarles n Keith on the way as they were like hafin 10% discount storewide n up to 50% for selected items... hmmm.... in the end decided to go back to Mac to get the drink. Was like queing when roro said wanna go Mos burger instead or not n i was like eh ok la den can get the ice milk tea. Heheh... jus as we came out he called n said he'd reached the taxi stand n i was like piangs eh so fast. Roro was like sayin aiyoz u ask him not to drive so fast n he oredi reach if u didnt ask him to drive too fast den he would haf reached even earlier is it? Kekeke.... wo bu zhi dao wo... 
Was like walkin towards the overhead bridge n we were like goodness! kena climb the stairs.... kekeke... finally managed to reach the other side but as we were walkin dwn the stairs i happen to spot lizards on the top part of the sheltar... wahlauz eh! Almost freaked me out manz! They were like so close to my head n to make matters worse they looked like they cld jus drop off anytime n land on my head lor... EEEeeeekkkkksssss..... quickly walked dwn the stairs man... dun wan those things to land on my head. Tink i'll jus freak out n faint on the spot lor... YuCkZ! Tinking of it onli makes me wanna scratch my head le.... goose bumps standing oso...
Finally reached the car n was like settling dwn n pourin the milk into the tea... kakak... my darlin kept turnin to look at Roro... so scared tt she might spill the milk manz... hehehe... roro was like dun worry... me maybe clumpsy but me will not spill anything in yr car wait kena kick out... hahah... was almost reachin her place n she was like tellin him to turn later but tink my darlin had sme hearin deficiency... he actuali tot he heard roro callin him uncle! Hahaha... Goodness! 
Anyway we dropped Roro off n he was like askin so where we goin now... tot for a min den i was like go east coast lor... den he was like erm... k lor... went east coast n walked to Bedok Jetty.... hmmm... the tide last nite was super high manz... hee... different from normal days... anyway walked to the end of the jetty n stayed there for a while lookin at the pple fishin n all. Was like askin me if i'd ever seen pple fishin for sotong or not n i was like nope den he asked if i've seen a live sotong n i was like tryin real hard to recall if i did but sad to say nope... though me like eatin sotong but me no seen a live one before lehz... kekeke... was like standing there hopin to catch a glimpse of one but didnt haf such luck... kekeke... saw sme small fishes playin with the bait though.. hee... kinda fun... told him abt my fishing trip i had with Chris n William n he was like u fish ah... kekek... told him how i learnt hw to fish n wat happened once at Pasir Ris FIshing Pond where my fish hook went haywire n hooked onto Chris... wakakak....
Heng missed by a few cm.... hahaha....
Was njoyin myself... talkin to my baby n lookin out to sea... saw many things... n was mentioning to him tt me saw the model of the HP that i wanted to get... wakakak..... he happened to be wrappin his arm ard me n asked me how much it was n den he jus said when u buyin it? n i was like wait until me haf $$$ lor n he simply said i buy for u lor... PianGZ! So simple as tt ah Darling? I buy for u lor... hahah... tink my baby may haf gone abit bonkers le... evything i wan oso he say i buy for u lor... First say he'd buy the ring for me now say buy me the HP... hahaha... wat else u wanna buy for me huh Darlin? kekekek.... anyway told him i didnt wan him to. Hmmm.... didnt wan him to spend so much... shld be gettin a new hp himself oso... kekek... oso didnt want the 1st gift from him to be the same as the peabrain! A few common things abt them is enaf oredi....
Stayed at the Jetty awhile longer den walked back... as usual my baby had to go to the toilet... kekek... where to find toilet for u? Hmmm.... in the end we went to this plc tt looked like sme sort of a cafe n got a seat. Ordered drinks n sotongball... kekeke... den he was like askin me where the toilet was... hahaha... hello do i look like i noe? wakaka... anyway looked ard n told him it cld be at the back cos it looked like the enterance to one... heheh... was right... hahah... anyway took a sip of my green tea but it didnt taste like green tea at all... asked for a changed n we were right! Ha! The woman opened the can of green tea with lemon or lime or smething like tt for me... Yucks... it tasted more like shandy diluted in water...
Was like talkin n drinkin..... told me abt the time when his license almost kena gantong... hmmm..... so young but oredi havoc... kekek... but was ok la... lucky thing nothin happened... still cld argue in a way with the TP smemore.. hahah.... my baby jus so mischievious n noti at times... ekekek..... like me...
Heee.... but tts wat make him my baby... heee.... after awhile we decided to leave n he was like wanna go where? n i was like up to u lor... cant tik of any place to go... was driving when i sort of like held his chin n he was like jokingly sayin beta not play play ah yr mummy said to drive carefully.... didnt noe wat wind got into me but me sort of like got alittle angry by wat he said.... dunno wats wrong with me oso... kinda temperamental the past few days... my mood swings were oso unpredictable.... *siGhz* kept quiet n ignored him for awhile....
Den he was like u wanna go c ah guah not? n i was like anything lor up to u... so he was like ok lor... tried to pacify me a few times but as usual me n my xiao jie chou pi qi la.... argh! cannot tahan myself smetimes.... anyway he gave up tryin to poloso me aft smetime.... was like njoyin the scenary as he drove along n it sort of made my mood beta.... almost went back to normal..... after goin round changi village twice n seein the ah guahs it sort of cheered me up... den he was like u wanna go c the air strip? Hmmmm.... curious n was like ok... den he said he wasnt sure if it was open n all but we still drove towards tt direction... passed a few cars along the way.... wow.... the sight before me was like how to describe lehz.... wasnt reali to die for or wat but it was reali reali nice lor.... in a way kinda romantic... managed to c an plane take off oso.... heee......
My baby was like askin if i wanted to go to changi airport n i was like erm... Changi Airport? Actuali i was quite ok with it since i like goin to the airport n its not like i get to go there all the time... told him anything n it was up to him if he wanted to.... smehow or rather think there was sme sort of miscommunication here.... i was like waiting for his decision n kept quiet while lookin out of the window but i guess he tot tt i was throwing one of my tantrums again n it sort of like pissed him off..... *siGhz* Tis sort of started the whole silent episode.....
From here things started gettin worst. He was like sitting there n started sighin but it didnt sound like the normal kind of sigh. was more like the pekcek sort... cld sense tt he was gettin more pissed by the minute... managed to catch a glimpse of him n i was like wahlauz! His face was so black n he looked like he was reali tryin to compase himself n not explode in anger sia.... Scary! Sort of felt afraid out of the blue n had a misture of feelins too.... 
Neva saw this side of him before since he seldom threw his temper or got angry.... but last nite was diff.....
Dunno how to explain tt feelin... was like a mixture of fear, sad, hurt, anger n evything else all rolled into 1. Aiyoz... jus knew tt it was beta to keep quiet n not agitate him further... den suddenly it seemed like it felt tt he'd controlled n composed himself long enaf n he simply said den go home la.... wahlauz... no head no tail nothing jus tt... for a min i was like surprised den aft tt it sort of made me angry... i knew tt he was tired oredi n tt he felt agitated over wat had happened but he cld haf said it in a nice tone or at least in a tone tt didnt sound so..... fierce n angry! Aiyoz.... didnt dare say anything n kept quiet... his face was black enaf n i was oredi feelin my temper startin so tot it best to not say a word... he made a u-turn which i cld tell was done at the spur of moment when he was reali angry cos he neva drove in tt way eva... was driving rather fast oso which was fne by me since i love the speed.... but smehow or rather the whole journey back seemed different.... felt hostile n distant n anger added into it
Anyway as we reached the carpark i got off the car n started walkin home. He was oso walkin me to my door but a distance away. Tis moron didnt even say a thing n all n it sort of made me angrier.... was so pissed me walked straight home n unlocked the gate n door n simple closed it without even lookin at him the whole time or even sayin goodbye. The minute i closed the door, i hesitated n immediately felt sad n guilty over wat i'd done to him. Aiyoz.... started regrettin n all n i was like feelin reali shitty...
msged him tellin him tt i was sorrie n tt i knew tt it was my fault n all but there wasnt any reply so went up to my room n called him.
Took him smetime to answer the call n when he did he sounded reali moody n pissed n sounded like he didnt wanna talk to me since he kept askin me to go bath n when i asked him y n was it cos he didnt wanna talk to me he actuali gave such a lame reason by sayin he was driving! Wat the ^%#^#! He cld talk to me n be driving at the same time many a times previously but jus not able to last nite? I was like k fine i get the drift tt u dun wanna talk to me so fine.... Said sorrie again den ended the call still feelin guilty but more hurt n sad.... msged him n told him not to drive too fast n tt actuali i wanted him to make a u-turn back cos i wanted so badly to hug n kiss him. Told him i was sorrie for evything n to drive safely n carefully n also msg me when he got home. All he replied was tt he was oredi at Stevens Rd.... Goodness! it wasnt even 10 min ago n he was oredi at Stevens Rd? I can imagine how fast he was goin! Told him nvm den... was feelin worried for him which was the norm... always felt worried when he drove home alone... jus haf this thing in me tt one day smething might happen to him.... jus hope this premonition of mine doesnt come true
wldnt know wat i'd do if it reali did....
Msged roro n was like tellin her wat happened n how guilty n sad it made me feel n she was like sayin dun worry la its jus a small miscommunication n it'd be alrite after he wakes up tmw.... told her i hope so lor since i'd neva seen him angry n behave the way he did last nite. Sort of scared me n all.... didnt noe wat to tink or feel oso..... felt kinda lost oso... heart ached like nobody's business man! Neva felt like tis before. Was like tellin her tt it wasnt this way the last time when i was with Chris... neva behaved or felt like how i did last nite when it happened... sort of felt frighten tt things btw us wld worsen... goodness! me reali felt tt paranoid last nite... was worried.... treasure this relationship tt im hafin... sort of feels like he's the one i've been lookin for n wanting all my life n now tt i've found him i wldnt be able to keep him for long....
Aiyoz.... tink me startin to get paranoid again... Anyway talked to her for awhile n decided to go slp.... all the cryin made me kinda tired n slpy....
Hmmm.... woke up evy now n then to look at my hp to c ig my baby msged me but he didnt... tried goin back to slp den woke up again..... each time i tot of the incident from when i got out of his car to the moment i close the door i wld always start cryin.... its like in a way i felt tt if things were to happen i wld be the cause of it since i started it n i ended it by not sayin a thing nor even lookin at him even before i close the door... its like in a way i felt tt all these symbolised smethings n fear tt it wld reali happen.... *siGhz* tryin not to tink too much abt it now or let my imagination run wild....
Woke up this morning n was contemplatin whether or not to msg him or wait to c when he'd msg me but i jus cldnt resist the urge of takin my hp n be the one to msg him first.... didnt noe wat to msg oso... so jus msge him good morning darlin n he replied morning... aiyoz.... added on to my fear....
Anyway msged him abt last nite n apologised again n he was like nvm forget abt it. hmmm... all his replies sounded hostile n distant.... told him tt i wasnt able to forget it n oso y n for no reason me started cryin again! Aiyoz!!! Like a cry baby man! Goodness! Told him tt since he didnt feel like talkin abt it tt i wldnt bother him now n asked him to call me when he felt like it.... den received anpother msg from him askin me how n wat he was like last nite. Told him how he looked like n how i felt during the whole time....
Anyway my darlin called me almost immediately after i sent the msg n we talked abt it.... told him how i felt n he oso said how he felt. Told him tt i knew tt it was my fault n wat i did was uncalled for n i knew tt he must haf fely angry n hurt when i didnt say anything to him..... den after awhile he was like nvm jus promise u wont do it again k? Told him i promise n all.. den he was like even if my face black or if im angry u can talk to me wan... its beta if u do oso den iwldnt stay angry for long. It's very easy for me to not be angry aft tt.... How can i stay angry at my baby for too long leh? *sob* *sob*
Dunno y but me felt so relieved after hearing wat he'd said n all....
Told him how i felt the whole time n asked him if he knew how much he meant to me. Also asked him how much i meant to him n he was like dear dear u noe smetimes i dunno how to express myself n how i feel rite.... u tell me first la. Heee... of cos i noe lor.... my sotong baby how can i not noe rite? Hee....
Anyway told him how much he meant to me n tt smetimes it takes small things to happen like wat happened yesterday for one to realise how much the other person means to them. N he was like sayin huh onli after wat happened last nite den u realise how much i mean to u ah? n i was like no la... i knew how much u meant to me ever since after wat happened btw us after i came back fr Bintan but tt was diff since we werent together at tt point of time but now its different...
Told him tt in a way its even more realistic n all... more feelins poured in n us being together n goin thru life n our relationship together... sharin tots, feelins n frustrations.... hee.... from den on things got so much beta.... we managed to get over wats happened n moved on.... Talked abt our short stay tts gonna be comin reali soon... kekeke... lookin forward to it.....
Den decided to end the call since he had to go eat lunch n start his painting... Heee.... Wat im gonna be sayin next is smething ive neva said to anyone before.... Surely kena suan tmw but wat the heck.....
Darlin although we've onli been together for less then a month but the feelins we haf for each other developed n accumulated back a year or 2 ago... Evything we've shared n gone thru back den adds on to wat we're goin thru now, makin evything n this whole experience btw us even more meaningful n fulfilling... All that we've been thru n tts happened the past few yrs, n all these tts happening now means too much to me for me to eva want to lose it at all....
I've neva felt this way for smeone before nor has anyone affected me this way... except U.... Thank U for being who u reali r the whole time... for being there wheneva i needed u most n for loving me thruout the whole time.... The love i haf for u is more than wat words can explain.... its undescribable.... 
I Love U Baby....
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