....:: Siansation to the Max ::....

Feelin farkin bored...moody...irritated...slpy...n the list goes on... All in all i'm superly sian! Didnt feel like goin down in the end cos didnt noe wat to do dwnstairs n was feelin lazy anyway.... *siGhz* My Darlin msged n asked if i've had lunch n i said no. Was like askin me Y? N i said i was bored n irritated. Sick of the food dwnstairs, didnt noe wat to eat drink or do even if i went down, had nothing to do upstairs as well.... tinkin of not comin to work tmw... aRgH!!!!! Feelin so frustrated!

Had nothing to do so popped into Chitra's Blog to look c look c... Hmmm... read the last 3 entries n it seems like she's goin thru some frustrations.... Haven heard her talkin abt it... but then again i believe she must have spoken abt wat happened to Anja... Hope evything goes well.... Aiyoz.... Miss my Darlin lehz... *SiGhz* Jus when i was tinking of him, he called... Hee... Happy to hear his voice... but still it didnt reali change my mood since i was reali reali bored... Talked to him n he was like dun like tt la darlin... ok? *sighz* i oso wish not to be lor... sianz man

Asked if he finished his stuffs at work since he was kinda busy earlier on... n he was like sayin tt he's waiting for his boss to come back from lunch since he had to see him n i was like oic... aiyoz... haven even talk for like how many minutes n he said tt his stupid idiotic boss was back from lunch!! Sickening sia.... Said tt he'd talk to me later n asked me to msg him n he'd reply back when he's free... told him its ok n to go do his stuffs.... Hmmm.... Wanna meet him sooner instead of hafin to wait until Fri lehz... Alamak how like tt? *SiGhz* Feel tt im so much more closer to him now as compared to before... Is tis good? Or is it bad? Dun wanna be too dependent on him n all... Dun wanna repeat the same mistakes i made previously.... But knowing all these doesnt make much of a diff... Im still fallin into my own trap which i myself set... Y does such things happen all the time... Knowing or unknowingly, it still happens...

Cant help but remember wat Roro once said to me....


Sometimes the one u love turns out to be the one
who hurts u most, and sometimes the friend
who takes you into his arms and cries
when u cry turns out to be
the love u never knew u wanted

Jus those few simply sentences but it carries with it loads of meaning... The meanings are jus so true lor... but then again the friend who takes you into his arms and cries when u cry turns out to be the love u never knew u wanted.... who is this friend / love i never knew i wanted? Does tis person happen to be my Darling who has always been there for me whenever i needed him for the past few years? Den again.... the one u love turns out to be the one who hurts u most.... Would history then repeats itself? Only time will tell.... for me, i serious hope tt it doesnt ever.... Found happiness, joy, love among many others....

Jus came back from some stupid promo briefing which had nothing to do with us... was on stupid mobile services n all but still we were made to attend.... was to be a few min break since some of the mktin pple who were supposed to come brief us were not here yet... left n neva went back cos it was jus so stupid for us to be present when it was not relevant to us... not a single bit.... damn it... that blardy April jus wanted us to be present so tt she wld be able to monitor our every movement n know wat we were up to. If we hadnt gone for tt dumb briefing we wld have been too free n she wldnt noe wat we were up to or where we were.... Expected wan la... Conniving Sly Hypocritical Back-Stabbing Bitch... Cld even msg Jymmie n ask if we were goin back to the conferenec room for the continuation of the briefing... SiAo! Of cos we arent... Jymmie even msged her n told her tt we werent goin back n tt we cld read fr the notes if necessary...

Sianz sia... nothing to do liaos... tink will check my ONYX Q den laze n rot... mayb continue to read my book.... *siGhz*