Sunday, January 11, 2004

....:: Fact of Life be it acceptable or not ::....

M so shack after hafin to bake pineapple tarts for CNY. Got woken up at 10.30am den had lunch n went to the market to get some stuffs. Almost immediately after reachin home was i told to start cleanin the marble dining table in preparation for the makin of the tarts... Haiz... Tts the start of the torture and the result of the aches im experiencing now on my fingers, hands, arms, back and legs. ArGh!! Thank god i'm on leave tmw... or else... i wonder how i'll be able to drag myself out of bed.... My baby's so shack too... poor thing... had to stay home to help his mum spring clean the house... Kekek.... we both had our short break almost the same time n ended up talkin... kekek... me almost fell aslp while talkin... was superly shack n slpy out of a sudden... Hahah....

Came home late yesterday. Met up with Garry n we caught the 9+ show at Cineleisure den went to Mezzanine after tt.... But tt wasnt the reason y me reached home late. went to watch Cheaper By The Dozen.... Shows not bad... hilarious n entertaining.... took our mind off stuffs... we were both pretty tired howeva the moment I met my baby I felt beta.... cld it be tt each time i c him i'll not feel tt tired? kekeke.... crazy but u'll neva know... Always look forward to be able to meet my baby... feel tt the time spent with him always pass so quickly n tt i neva get to haf enaf time with him at all... hmmm... if onli he's stayin nearer.... things maybe different... so tiring at times when i tink how far we both stay from one another....

Anyway my purpose of writing was bcos i happened to c smething which kinda surprised and shocked me. In a way, i felt totally disappointed. Neva in my wildest dream wld i have tot tt wat i saw was possible or true... Haiz... wateva it is, it aint my life... Haf oredi made up my mind after seeing wat i saw. Tt i would totally wash my hands off their matters... M not gonna be bothered abt the decision or path tts been or will be chosen. Afterall, who m i to be tellin others wat to do with their own life.

U are who u r. Yr personality, character, up-bringing, beliefs and life is wat u make it out to be. No one can change or control tt! If you dun wan unnecessary misunderstandings or stuffs to happen to it, then all the more should one know wat they're doin n not do stuffs tt would mislead others. M seriously pondering if i would eva be able to bring myself to believe and trust the words of one whom i tot would know beta n wldnt haf done wat i saw.... Kinda skeptical after all tts happen and also bcos i've been proven time n time again tt I was right. Neva was i proven wrong.

There are always two sides to a coin. U may mean it one way but others would c it as the other. Not evyone sings to the same tune as u all the time... Haf talked abt this with the others n we all felt the same way n tt we wouldnt bother much anymore since it isnt our life. Feel tt its time i started being who i was before cos it seems like the soft n hard way doesnt work at all... maybe being blunt would. Afterall, one should be doin wat one tinks is right and not wat others want. U cant go ard pleasing evyone n end up being miserable and unhappy. So wats the point? Jus dun expect all of us to see eye to eye on matters tt we feel is a total waste of time n effort as it aint worth it!

Our mood during this festive season aint gonna be spoilt by a messed-up specimen tts a total pathetic shit excuse for mankind. Gatherings of any sort would neva in a million lifetime include such a specimen as we are of different wave-length. We maybe referred to as anything anyone wants to call us but so be it. The simple fact afterall is tt we r who we r n nothing can change tt as its almost impossible to change any person if they have been living by tt principles most of their life.

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